Weekend,

Bilik <3

semenjak aku tak kuar umah ni en, dok membadak dml bilik je la. nk taw tak? ehem. bilik aku bersih! weeeee! HAHA. kali ni sumpah baik punya. I have a new study desk for me and a TV rack as well! Tv rack utk apa? TV la! duh. jgn jeles eh kawan2. mai la umah. lepak bilik aku. yang tunggu utk dicat + habiskan wall painting je. pastu : I am the happiest girl ever! *toe touch!* every morning all I need to do is kemas katil. hmmm. spending more time inside my room changed me positvely. how to appreciate my room more and for me to realize how messy my room was! EMB's lair is halfway done. da complete I will post it here. jgn risau =))

Biru !

HAHA! seronok kan paje tgk game semalam? heee. ko da tgk ranking baru? aku siap post lagi kat wall ko. kitorg biru bagi rasa je kejap je dok atas. apa lagi? gerak la! lagi mau tunggu! HAHAHA! tu la. ckp besar lagi. tgk sape gelak besar skunk? oh ye. teringat pulak lawak tadi. gila menangis kau teringat. bongok punya pnut gemok. ok. meh aku cte. korg tak phm sudah. aku ngn pnut phm. cmni. slalu lau aku bengang, mesti aku ckp - abah kau ___ *kena isi la dgn apa yg aku xbstuju. cntoh : apa brg pakai gigi, pakai siku la. lau aku xstuju aku ckp, "abah kau siku". xde kena mngena en? pastu td :

*si mior beberak tunjuk terror nk wat magik. tipu memang la! dia kata dia cong. aku pn marah :

emb : kata cong!

mior : cong la ni *smbil muka tahi beberak dia tahan gelak

emb : abah kau cong.

*spontannya pnut jwb,

pnut : abah kau cong? cina ke?

pecah perut aku! HAHAHAHAH. chong la jadiknyaaa! abah dia chong. pnut. xpe. aku tetap syg ko pnut =))

rain rain please don't go?

 

I was sitting alone in the rain - in the middle of nowhere. the rain was getting heavier but I just sat there like there was no single raindrop fell on me. All I did was sit down and stare. Clearly my head was somewhere else. Then I heard a voice saying " hey, " I did not make a single move until I felt a tap on my shoulder. I remember those hands. I was very afraid to turn around. Don't make me look behind I begged. Then I felt warm and comfy inside. All I need was a hug and a protection. He didn't make me turn back, all he did was being there beside me - having my back. The rain stopped and so did my dream. It felt so real. I woke up with the biggest smile on my face. Looking for my phone and " 1 new message " started my day perfectly <3

BEBERAK =))

weird but mine :)

today's news! lunch with the whole family. except ayah because he got other things to do. well. the title above. yes my family can be weird at times, not in a bad way I mean! positively :)

as usual. I will bully ESYA. ala dia tu kadang mengada je. aku tanya satu soklan je pon nak jerit macam aku dera dia. MENGADA! kalau dia wat aku xpe. pastu jerit2 semua pndang. masa tu mmg aku sepak je dia. HAHA. da alang2 nanges. mummy akan mula membebel. ala bukan jaoh sgt beza umor aku ngn dia! 20 ngn 2 thn. jauh sgt ke? hikhik.

pastu ABANG akan datang. dengan penuh kurang sayang dia akan tarik rmbot aku secara tiba2. pastu cari mummy. da tua pon gedik ayam lagi. pastu tiba2 sepak aku. aneh bukan? HAHA. but one thing about abag, he never leaves the family behind. tadi dia bebel pasal kete. ehem. tah pape. pastu aku buli esya, dia buli aku takpe! mummy tgk abang ni! heeee.

MUMMY pulak akan iyekan jee abang. dia akan gelak besat tgk anak anak dia yg macam tanak membesar. kuikui. I will always be your baby mummy! and will always mengedik for you love. ehem. hikhik.

ET ngn ABG NAZRI akan melayan esya. apa saje dak tu mintak dibaginya. esya gaduh mcm mana pun ngn et. et tetap sabar jugak. abg nazri pn dia je yg rela diperkotak katikkan oleh esya. ZARA? watpe lg. baring je la! apa lg leh wat. tapi td first time kuar. bulat je mata melilau! HAHAHA. eh tadi abang ipar aku jadik gangster keramat. dia marah org tuh letak meja tgh2 alam. jam dpn umah. ye pon nak kawen jgn la ganggu. apa lah mereka. kan da kena marah. et. husband u tu mmg garang ke? hikhik.

walau cmne pon mereka, they are still my family and I love spending time with them <3

beberak saya :)

you make me fall for you everyday :)

I'm glad that you're home :)

HAHA. At last. I have waited for you since - FOREVER! I miss you so muchy muchy baby. Looking at you, how handsome you are becoming. Makes me want to fall in love with you again! I am in love with you and only youuuuu! It was like out first date again, not really a date since PIJAT was there with us but still - I miss holding you tight! Okay okay - here I promise in front of all readers that I will take care of you because you no nobody can replace youuuu! you you YOU! I am sooooooo in love right noww <3

I want to get on the road with you, I can't wait for semester five to open so that nobody can get on our way. I love you NEO. You and only youuu! :) oh ye. Mior pon :P

p/s : pijat! nanty lunch lg okay? hee. rindu you yeng! :D

Next week eh!

I can't wait to get my feet on these babies! HAHA. I love my mummy very much! Next week eh? Hugs and kisses! Muah muah. you rock :D

p/s : new sem is beginning, bila mau shopping? HAHAHA!

this one is for you,

,,|,,

Gift sincerely from me to you :)

Jangan nak seperti tahi sangat okay. Even though I did not say anything doesn't mean that we are on the same boat. This volcano might explode in in any time *tick - tock - tick - tock* Handle with care - even if you don't, just act like you do.


I need some time off. Let's go for a movie. Then when you think of it - I just need some time alone.


DVD + SPA = total peace :) *oh that sounded so lovely. better start downloading movies <3

not another word.

I am sorry if things did not go as you planned. you were moving too slow. I thought things were clear. but I guessed you thought I was joking - well I didn't. Everything was not a lie. it came sincerely from my heart. I did not realize that I was hurting you. well - like I have told you -  I waited for you but things are too late now. It is strikes too for you aite? there are two choices now - move on or stay awhile. but seriously this time I'm not promising you anything okay? so don't blame me if your dream did stay as dream. It's not wrong to dream - but it is better if you share if you wanna make things happen. remember all the avoiding? there's a reason for it. yes. it's official now and it has been going on for three months. I did not tell the world not because I wanna lie to you - I just don't want to brag about it. But after the conversation we had, I guessed it's better to tell aite? It's fair for him too. I know he's been playing cool about him 'not being jealous' but I know some corner of his heart - jealousy do exists. So I am making thing clear. Yes, I am attached to someone. I guessed we can still be best friends as we used too but there are limits now. He is mine and he deserve some respect too :)

it's too long now!

yup! the holiday is because day by day I'm getting bored with nothing to do! somebody save me pleaseeeeee :( without NEO, I'm lost in space, I have to take turns with AYAH to use KEMBARA. bleh berdarah hidung duduk kat rumah. as usual, sport's day is getting near. the little ones started messaging me - oh how I miss school! sorry tak reply. bill masih tertunggak yawww. call akk je senang :)

I have been cleaning up my room for the past few days - I know - I don't believe it either but it's the truth. my room is actually big when you can see the floor! HAHA. then I found my acrylics and brushes and then an idea popped into my head! wall paintings! woohooooooo! it's time be creative people. I'm painting my feature wall only and the rest will be painted in purple. mummy bising pulak nak colour purple - katanya bilik aku kecik. hey! biarlahhhhhhhhh :P okayy. after everything is done then I'll post the picture :) but this may take awhile okay peps!

dah berkurang post aku kan? well. laptop ni seperti tahi kadang2. bila dia rasa dia nk bagi aku online - boleh la pakai. kalau tak YM je boleh bukak. serupa tayah online. nak rebbot sendiri boleh je, driver lak takde. nk download driver memang sengal. HAHA. aku dapat rasakan, laptop aku. nak baru je! HAHAHA. nak ketuk mummy taknak la. ketuk abg cambest. dia ada janji nak belikan! lagipon. there nothing much to blog about. banyak memang. mood kurang and some things are preferred to stay in silence.

oh. macam nak pergi holiday je! mana2 je laa, asal bukan KL. naah - I'm not saying that I hate KL. I love KL - proud KLian you might say but sometimes I just need to get out. oh ye! hari wilayah kan nak dekat! weeeeeee. I'm standing up and proud saying - I know the wilayah song! ye! saya hafal :) kamu hafal? HEHE.

can I just summarize everything into one post?

obviously I can. It's my blog. HAHA. hello readers. It's been - erk - few days since the last time I blogged. Hopefully everyone is doing fine. honestly speaking. I'm not. Let me just break this post into different sections :

RESULTS.

yup. It's in people and time for me to commit suicide. HAHA. nothing change. my pointer went up a bit but - not saying that I'm unhappy - just not satisfied if we want to compare with my foundation. ALHAMDULILLAH I passed. Still in good ranking but I need to work thing out in next semester. seriously. I need to move from where I am standing. I've been standing in the same spot for two semesters. I deserved what I got because - HAHA - last minutes work people :P

SEMESTER BREAK.

the holidays is killing me! I'm in total boredom since everybody started working and started their semesters. anybody up for a holiday? I'm selling mine. please take them away from me! i cannot wait for registration day this upcoming 23rd February! time is moving so slowwwwwww =(( with my baby NEO in the hospital. I'm stuck in the house till NEO is good as new! *sigh*

BET.

oh yeah. the bet is still on! bodo ni. few days to go. HAHA. the kilos are moving down FYI. so there are still chances okay! jangan konfiden sangat paje =D

@#$@%$#$%.

HAHA. i know i had mood swing the past few days. PMS people. don't blame me for being a girl. no worries. yeah - there are certain things messing up my head but why should I bother when I have more interesting things to think about rather than stupid shits? =))

YOUUUUUUU,

thanks for being mine :)
being there when i need youuuuu,
who you might ask?
I'm not sure, you should know yourself <3

p/s : anis, belom ada masa buatkan blog me & my boyfie utk ko. HAHAHAHAH!

hey baby hey baby hey !

hello! thousand of apologies for holding this post back. my laptop is getting on my nerves! I can't use my safari, firefox, IE and even chrome. all I can do is YM. urgh. anyways. since I get the time to use my home pc, might as well I blog :)

okay! on 22nd of January, another baby girls has joined the family at 1436hours. she was 60cm long and weighs about 3.5kg. I waited the whole afternoon with mummy. HAHA. masa tunggu - I was nervous like I was the one who's giving birth. mummy was laughing. suddenly dia pulak bsuara "mummy lak mcm nak terberanak ni sakit perot tapi mummy nak tunggu ET!" LOL. aku pon balas "mummy pergi jela. mummy push cayalah, tros baby ET pon kuar". 5 minutes after mummy went to the toilet, abg E pon kuar - he got the biggest smile on his face saying "abg E da jadi ayah" :) awwwww. how cute! LOL. I told you mummy! I'm glad both of them are a-okay :)

heee. oh yeah! somebody is going to be jealous! it's okay ESYA, KAKA will always be here to bully you okayy? both of you will equally be bullied by me. jangan rebut please! HAHA. oh I am so freaking happy having love around the house <3

oh yeah since we are talking about baby, mummy told me how she delivered me. she said it was as easy as pie - contraction took about less than two hours if not mistaken and only two push she needed to get me out! LOL. she was surprised indded, the doctor too. rambot lebat. fat baby. yup. that's me :) heeee. no matter what, I know I'm gonna be your baby for the rest of your life *even I don't want to admit it* :P

again. CONGRATULATION ET AND ABG E! Mummy too! I bet you're the happiest person on earth, having a baby for your birthday :) oh how I love my family! we rock! <3

I just need some peace.

At last - it happened when I said the magic word. LOL. how wonderful. well, thing did not go that well for me this few days. hormones I guessed. the day started when abg nazri woke me up because ET was in pain. but no worries people. false alarm. naughty baby playing with us. I did not have much to say but I try not to talk crap. Let me just summarize everything in this post.

We spend the whole afternoon  at Ampang Puteri nervously for the new member in the family, she/he was just playing around with ET *sigh* but excitedly cannot wait to bully the baby! - erk - I mean to be an aunt! HAHA. then we went for sushi. The finally! I got to trim my hair. with all the split ends that keep on bugging me. then I spend all day getting high with pnut. we were playing with gas. uh-huh. natural gas! LOL. It's fun how we crack up for no reason.

oh yeah. I just found out why I felt suffocated inside my room even after cleaning it up. There were visitors. oh shit. I give myself goosebumps! okay let's not talk about it.

Moving on, to add on spices inside my life, I heard screaming. the thing I hate most. It made my heart stopped. Knowing 'things' that only you knew made things harder. You will never know how it feels to be in my shoes. I'm not whining. this is telling. so don't get misunderstood. duh. even if i whined, it is my blog.

oh how great! things are getting bigger now! this is what I have been waiting for! WOW. It's almost been three month and thanks for making this fun - even for awhile. try not to bother much. I'm fine if you're wondering. Just in case. I'm never empty. so beat it. yeah I am having my period. It's not you're problem. It's mine.

this song hits me at the moment,

Artist: Coldplay
Album: X&Y
Title: Talk


Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done


Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me


So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done


So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk

pretend that I'm cursing badly for the title.

Long fringes are very useful. Uh-oh. You can sometimes make yourself invisible - even when you're not but that what I feel. I feel safe hiding under my bushy fringe, I don't mind having it all over my face. Yes. I can still see the world. No worries. When things are messed up in my head, I'll messed up my fringe in front of my face. I feel invisible. Hiding from all the troubles.

Well I know you're trying the best you can to be there for me. I need you too listen. Hearing and listening are two different things! But it's okay. I don't want to mess up you're head like mine. I just need a shoulder to lean. I feel left out. Wait - the right word is being stepped on. Yeah - I guessed I'm too small for them to see me. You don't have to repeat. I know my place to stand. I marked it beautifully with my glittery purple marker pen. I'm sorry if I got all emo just now. Yeah, your words almost killed me. But I manage to duck. Try not to bother me much. I'm not empty on my own. I bet you don't even remember my name. 

My life is mine. Can't you see the first word of the sentence. My refers to me as in myself. So try not to arrange anything because sadly I have designed my own way of living my f*cking life. All I need is mummy's approval and God's approval too.

PMS is a serial killer. It kills mood in silent. Making you want to kill too. Like right now. Try not to bug me much. Or next morning you'll be shock with me as the headline of the news. To make my day worst, I feel totally left out by the people I need so much. Good day people.

p /s : missing you makes me go moody when I can't have you.

awesome !

Well, it all started when I got a message from Fyda. Since it's been a long time I have quality time together with her, we decided to go jogging! yay! at last, a serious jogger to fulfill my jogging dream. HEHE. we jogged at Lake Garden around 1845 and went back around 2000hours :) oh how I miss having fun with you ! suddenly, Fyda decided to go booty shaking. HAHA. so I was in complete boredom plus I was pissed with somebody. I decided to join. Yup. I don't think I made a wrong move, uh-huh. Plus, quality time my best friend wouldn't hurt. Hee.

It was my first time to be honest. Yeah. What a loser you might say but it's okay. My teenage life is still a long road. So why the rush. HEE. moving on, there I was standing *blur* while they were checking our IDs. All the men in black are creeping me out. It was empty at first. maybe we were too early. My eyes were going everywhere. Oh. this is how it looks like. Not bad. Lookie at all the lights! weeeeee! people were getting ready. time passes by, the place is getting crowded. oh shit. my hands are getting cold. nervous perhaps. HAHA. of what? I don't even know, maybe just scared what's gonna happen next.

there were free drinks on the table. AHA. No thanks, I prefer not to :) there were numbers on tissue too. O-kayyy, again - no thank you. "No it's not boring. As long I have my friends around I don't mind" politely I said. They keep on pulling me up on the dance floor. I don't dance. well - not tonight. I'm just not in the mood. or let just put it this way - I'm insecure and scared - make that shy. HAHA. It's been a long time since I last shake my booty! I'm not sure if it's still work, LOL. And I don't show my REAL self that much around new people. wow. they can really shake their booties. oh yeah. I got to meet Fyda's friends too, Sakura and Fairus. they were awesome dancers. Sakura reminds me of Chika somehow. HEHE. plus, men in blacks around the dance floor scares me too! they were acting like dance police. watching over you dance. creepyyy!

oh yeah! they are many type of people. there were this guy that tickles my bones. yeah. his brain was floating, he dances like a total nerd. HUAHUA. It's fun watching! thanks for entertaining me! well as for me, I stand and watch, smiling over the three girls shaking. they were having fun. keep forcing me to dance, HAHA. my brain was somewhere else. sorry girls. I feel bad - not really in the mood. but thanks for taking me to this whole new experience :) next time I'll be back and bad yawwww <3

Dua Sembilan Sepuluh :D

hey you! this one is for you :)




Ne-Yo
Never Knew I Needed

(Ooh)
For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

For the ending of my first begin
(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
And for the rare and unexpected friend
(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (oh)
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (that I needed)
So now it's so clear I need you here always

Who'd knew that I'd be here (who'd knew that I'd be here oh oh)
So unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
Undeniably happy (hey)
Said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)
Girl you're the...

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (said I needed oh oh)
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed (needed oh)
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Baby baby
Now it's so clear I need you here always

It's all in my head,

I really don't know how to put everything into a word, a sentence or even a paragraph. It's messing up the area of my precious brain, sometimes even touches my heart too. See. I cannot even put up a sentence. Well, positively - things are going fairly smooth but at one point I wish I had never got anything to do about it. Like I said, everything got a limit. I can just burst out if I want to because I have the right leading my own life. But the thing with me, I don't have the heart to. uh - huh. you can call me a chicken if you want to but - it's the truth. I still have my brain to do the thinking, but in this case, my heart is doing it for me.

It's really disturbing for me when I have things to say but I cannot let it out - I'll have mood swings easily. or am I getting my period soon? hmmm - but it does bug me. Urgh. I know you have always been the victim to listens to all my babbling but I really don't want to mess your head up with shitty problems - but thanks for being there when I need you, oh shit. now I miss you! :)

putting this thing up on my blog doesn't really help much but at least - erk - I don't think it helps at all. HAHA. see. Not a single word can really describe what I am trying to say. This just proves that I TALK SHIT A LOT. LOL.

OKU :(

huh. seram tgk kaki diri sendiri. bila la kecacatan ni nak hilang. macam bodo betol. tah macam mana boleh lebam pon tataw. tak ingat pon aku libas kaki sendiri. maybe masa tu tgh marah. hati je saket. yg lain xrasa. tgk tgk kaki da darah. okay lagi letak ubat. besok bgn da jadi purple kehijauan. hish. apa semua ni~! nak mand memang sakit ah. lagi lagi terhimpap. boleh terkejut. cepat pulak kebas kaki ni bila duduk. nak pergi klinik cam malas. benda remeh je doktor sure malas nk layan. kepala da okay da. bila terhantuk je sakit. haih. naseb naseb!