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Bedroom Of My Dream

2012-02-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

Yes, please! And I shall live happily ever after!

More cool architecture photos; http://ecdm.eu/

One of the OLSEN is engaged!?

2012-02-19T18:50:00.001+08:00

OMG! Ashley is engaged!?

Have I ever introduce you to her yet? If no then I shall do it today and if YES then I am gonna do it again. *giggles* This is the longest friend that I have been in a friendship with - one of my best friend since-forever! And yesterday was her E-DAY! I really can't believe that she is engaged! I am speechless but extremely happy for her. She has been working to make this happen and it did! I just couldn't believe probably because I have seen her since well - we were five or six, grew up together - run around the neighborhood together. And now she is someone's FIANCEE! Again, my dear FATIN SHAFIDA BINTI SHAMSUL RIJAL, I wish you all the best and semoga sampai ke jinjang pelamin and till our kids become BFFs too! AMIN.

Love, Mary-Kate <3

P/S: We used to look very much alike when we were young, that's why we declared ourselves as Ashley & MK Olsens! *gittew* :P

Dramatic Much?

2012-02-16T20:21:00.003+08:00

So there was this commotion going on about how a university gave away a PhD so easily. There were more than 'brain' involved in this issue it seems. Everyone is angry. Okay, okay. But chill out. Why do you have to tore your certificate just because of a person? Like come on. You gonna throw away your study life like - 4 years just because you are upset? If you did it the right way, worked hard to get what you had, why you so mad? Some may have the shortcuts to life but that will not guarantee one would go far. They got lucky but we, we are blessed for not being inside the wrong shoes. Try to think positive - HAHA - sometimes I do encounter negative vibes which I hate oh so much! But I don't understand why do you have to tear you certs? Like seriously? If being a Curtin graduate makes me a #teamrosmah then #teamrosmah all the way! *tangan dibahu* Whatevs. She wasn't involve and did not effect my study years anyway.

P/S : Mummy always remind me NEVER to put yourself as the same level as the people that try to pull you down. You know why they do it right? Because you are much much more higher. Oh yeah, correct me if I'm wrong or any info missing regarding this issue. Cheers :)

EXTRA NOTE: It seems that it's just the Honorary title was give. Not the PhD itself so chill out.

Wordless Wednesday #11

2012-02-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

Wordless Wednesday #10

2012-02-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

Wordless Wednesday #9

2012-02-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

Quickie #5

2012-02-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

I am not sure what kicked in but today I was so inspired! I've researched and I feel like I have found my 'soul'. Hopefully this is true and I am so excited and really looking forward towards this new 'relationship'. I have been thinking and waiting and trying to figure out the 'characters' that I might want in this new soul-mate of mine and have been thinking A LOT. Today is the day. Where I fist laid my eyes - on those beautifully designed anatomies - I was speechless and thought it was just another 'crush'. Then the picture kept on coming and going. And for somehow I dunno, one and a half year to have come and realize that that was actually love?

I stalked you the whole day just so you know. Just to get to know you better. And I am really really looking forward to be spending time with you! I am eager to buy new sketch book and stationeries for you just so that we have a good healthy start of our relationship! YEAY! Let's promise to take it slow this time shall we? I have this feeling that this is going to be a good start!

And I shall call you EMBigram for now! More updates soon :)

p/s: ARTcited to visit the book store! YIPPIE!

RANDOM THOUGHTS #7

2012-02-02T02:34:00.003+08:00

What are labels to you? What does they mean to you? Like all the high-class branded stuff - what do you feel about them. Are they just some names or does they actually reflect something about you?

Some people are so into branded stuff that sometimes they tend to overlooked the real quality that you can actually find in not-so-famous-labels and one thing for sure - they last - they will actually stay through out your life.

Now same goes to friendship too.

Why do we need labels, true friends, best friends, college friends, high school best friends, you know. All the labels you can think off. Why do we need them?

I mean it's okay to have labels but they are not as important as the quality. I mean if the friends are real, they shouldn't be reminded of how they should behave or how important they are to some people and by that level of importance, they tend to get confused on which level are they actually in. You can call a person a best friend but no to the other party. So I guess, life is much more better without labels. You can express freely and just be yourself as you please without having to limit of who you befriend with.

Friendship is never about who you know the longest, it's the matter of who stayed.

There is this thing call 'growing up' - either we like it or not. We all have to go through it. And everyone should try. It's not as bad as it sounded.

Have you thanked a friend lately for staying?

Shmexy Galaxy!

2012-01-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

Found one of my 2012 resolutions! GET MY HAND ON THIS BABY!

I'm drooling over this and gonna get them by this year. Not sure when but I will hopefully! The year have another 11 months to go. So why the rush?

About my macbook? ERK. Well, who needs a macbook when you are working on iMac? LOL! :P

Quickie #4

2012-01-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

I haven't been writing that much these few months. Especially this year. It's not that I don't know what to write, I just don't know what to say anymore. Things have been running through my mind. A LOT OF THINGS. Which sometimes makes me confused, and always keep on reminding myself that I am ONLY turning 22 years old - I don't know why I worry too much. TOO MUCH.

I am not being quite myself lately. I think. Probably because I still can't get over my college years and that I am done with it. I feel like it's just yesterday that I registered for my foundation years. Time flies. I miss my fellow collegemates. Even we had our hard times but still - they are irreplaceable. When we are just about to get comfortable, we had to go our separate ways. Oh my - this is just too sad!

Changing topic! Life has been treating me well. I am just a confused girl trying to understand the real world. Getting my own money and living my own life. But it's more that that. Responsibilities. One step at a time, Ecar. One step at a time.

I miss the times when I worry about nothing.

Advice: enjoy your college life while you can. Seriously.

Live If You Really Want To

2012-01-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

This track is simply AMAZING. Yuna + Pharrell. Do I really need to explain? Enjoy.

Wordless Wednesday #8

2012-01-25T09:29:00.000+08:00

=')

Wordless Wednesday #7

2012-01-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

You Have Been Great, And I Thank You For That

2012-01-01T15:58:00.010+08:00

Twenty-eleven is one hell of a ride. Life is certainly like a roller-coaster. I agree. Even how bad you think the ride can be, by the end of the ride - well - you just wanna do it again. Over and over again. To me adrenaline is good. They give you some kind of excitement rush. It's way better than sitting home and well - do nothing.

Year 2011 had taught me a lot. And I really mean A LOT. I wouldn't want to bore you with the stuff that I might have told you before in the past posts. I am thankful of what twenty-eleven had given me. The good and the bad, both are equally important to me.

Year 2011 is the year I turned 21. I was excited and scared at the same time.

I stayed in a rental house with my friends, saved petrol and toll and most of all - saved time. I learned how to use my money wisely - that is for sure - learned how to appreciate more than I had - learned to actually open up my mind and understanding a little bit better - I learned how to be homesick, drove all the way home at 4AM so that I feel like leaving the house again - misunderstood leads to better understandings. There's just so much to list down but I would like to thank everyone who has involved in this change that I never can imagine going through it alone. To those who left and to those who decided to stay, to those who needs time and to those who - well - indirectly change me. I thank you all for that.

I look forward to 2012. This is where my new chapter of life begin. Probably a new book. Things are still a little bit unsure but whatever it is, I am gonna go through.

Start the year with BISMILLAHIRAHMANNIRRAHIM. I pray for that I am gonna get a good kick-start of my career path and start to make my own ka-ching and make life easier for MUMMY AND AYAH.

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM US! :)

Congratulation Class of 2011!

2011-12-18T15:13:00.031+08:00

Words is never enough to express what I am feeling right now. When I put on my robe. The first picture came to my mind was the picture on the left - picture from 1996 where we 'graduated' from kindergarten. Now look at the picture on the right. It was taken on 17th December 2011.

It feels like it was just yesterday that I am in my foundation - joking around, not worried about life. Now here I am, a Graduate. An unemployed Graphic Designer. Well - for now of course.

The ceremony went well. Tan Sri's speech was just heartwarming and made me so emotional! Especially where he was talking about how we have to repay our parents and "YOUR BABY HAS GROWN UP". ERGH. Suddenly that moment, I remembered how rebellious I can be to my parents, how whenever I try to speak up, they'll go "keep quiet, you don't know anything, you're still a kid". And that moment, I felt like - things are never going to be the same again.

And we rocked the ceremony as usual of course. Do I really have to tell that? THEHEHE. Anyway, yeah we did - especially our class! We did some individual way of walking and taking the scrolls. Well not me of course, I was so worried of tripping down and kissing the floor! HAHA. But our boys rock hard! WOOT WOOT! Yeah, we can say that LUCT's ceremony is not as serious and formal as the others. We can just do whatever we want, screaming, dancing, singing and standing on the chair - waves our hands like we just don't care! I am going to miss the place. Especially our GDD class!

Anyway, NO GOODBYES! I prefer SEE YOU LATER :)

Again, CONGRATULATION CLASS OF 2011!

Pictures? Waiting for the others to upload and steal them! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *evil laugh*

Wordless Wednesday #6

2011-12-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

Kuala Lumpur was literally LUMPUR-ED

2011-12-13T20:10:00.032+08:00

These are the picture that people post on Facebook. And I do not belong them. I wanted to share them because somehow. It gives me some flashback.

STORY TIME!

When I was in standard one or two, or three - ergh - FINE. when I was in primary school but still little, this thing happened. I can still remember - well not EVERY SINGLE MOMENT of the incident but some of the highlights.

MUMMY was in Japan that time, AYAH fetched me and my sister from school and the rain was not that bad - and passed by in front of the KL Library, I remembered the water alongside the road is not too high, you can still go through. Long story short, when we were about to pass next to the river, suddenly the water rose up and start to cover up in the road in seconds! AYAH stayed cool and reversed trying to avoid the water from coming towards the car when suddenly water started to enter the car! As a kid, I panicked of course! I was shouting like, "Ayah! Kereta masuk air!" We were using Perdana during that time. That we were trapped. Ayah took us up to KL Library, I remembered me saving my MCD! The water was up to my chest (I was short and small that time so to me it is high) and I was walking through the flood with my MCD in my hand. HAHA! Then AYAH and some other guys helped to push the car up to KL Library. We were stuck there until - well - my flashback ended there. Sorry.

They did forecast the weather and it's gonna be rainy till the end of the year.

Stay safe!

Wordless Wednesday #5

2011-12-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

10KM Sweat of Satisfaction

2011-11-28T12:21:00.002+08:00

This would be the first time of me running after years of well - not running. Jogging is not counted okay. Involving in such marathon makes me feel better somehow. Winning is not the main thing here. The main objective is finishing it. Me and man made it 10km in an hour and forty-five minutes! While Shashaq finish five minutes later. But anyways, we did it! WOOT WOOT! The sweat dripping off you face is one hell of satisfaction when you have been feeling like a pregnant woman for the past few weeks! HAHAHA! The winners are crazy! They managed to finish the race off in 32 minutes! 45 minutes! I really don't want to know how they do it.

Halfway of the race, I met an old schoolmate of mine - Chow @ Michelle! I thought I saw here then I decided to cut her then I turn back it is her! Would like to hug and all but we both are full in sweats. HAHA! Anyway, we got to gossip - eh - 'catch up' a little bit. For the whole 4KM! HEHE! Would love to catch up more!

Anyway, I really feel much much better about myself by joining these kinds of events. Would like to join more! And sorry for all the lemaks that I left behind on the streets.

AND NO, BELUM KURUS LAGI -.-

Here some pictures! Thanks to Chow for taking it for us :) // Gambo Shaq takde sebab dia kat belakang. HAHA!

We got a Nike shoe pen drive at the end of the race! And a banana! YEAY!

The worst semester. EVER.

2011-11-27T03:06:00.001+08:00

I can conclude this semester as the WORST semester EVER that occurred in my four years of studying. The most stressful and I am almost that close of giving up and just jumping of a building. Okay maybe not but you get the point.

How bad it can be you might ask? I am not sure where it started but it was really really bad. I got panic attack which is normal and you can actually produce work while you're in panic. With exhibition and final projects. I guess everyone started to loose control and became selfish because no one wants to screw up and stay another semester. Maybe that's why everyone is so pressured until two friends can become enemies for awhile. It did not even cross my mind to be in a fight with my friend. And that is when I realized everything was out of control. We did cool down and no worried - we cleared things up. I cannot stay calm for a few days thinking about it!

There was the 4 o'clock in the morning drive where I broke down and cry because of all the pressure and decided to just go home. I arrived home and just sat down next to my mom and she was shocked to see me there and I cried in her arms. *LOVELOVELOVE*

At times I will crawl under the table and just sit there and cry. Or just lay under the table. For no apparent reason. Maybe it's a cat thing. Which runs in me. I am not sure.

Then there's one week where I am doing work in front of the laptop and just broke down and cry every single time I get. Yes. When I say it's the worst semester ever - I really meant it. Even my friends also did cry - well the girls of course, not sure about the guys. Maybe they did cry only that they told us that they didn't. I wonder.

Then there's the climax. DUN DUN DUN! *panic music* I lost my wallet when I was on the way to the printing shop to collect my FINAL WORK! AND IT'S THE SUBMISSION DAY! Can you imagine!? I was driving and thinking - "God has been so good to me. I mean - I got panicked most of the time and he gave me peace to finish up my work and everything is almost done now. Alhamdulillah. I can rest now", and I went to fill up my petrol and that is when it happened. I lost my wallet at the petrol station! I was so lost! I panic. I kept on looking and pray - "if ANYONE wants to steal my money, do steal but please leave my wallet in the drain or in the trash can". But there was no luck. Everything happen for a reason. I tried to stay positive. At least God remembers me that is why he is testing my patience. And maybe I looked so ugly in my IC and this is the time to reshoot my picture. And maybe He wants SYABIL TO BUY ME A NEW WALLET *please take note*. Oh well. Life goes on. Of course I was scolded by my mom. PFFT. I cried the whole night thinking about how my life is f-ed up now. I am screwed. But I manage to talk to the lecturer. She turned out to be cool after all.

Moving on, I cried in front of the JPN officer. They asked me to pay up RM300 when I am totally broke. HOW GAY IS THAT!? Plus I was having PMS so my emotion was unstable - BLAME PMS! *it's good to be a woman when you can blame PMS all the time* but it's true though. How can you not be pissed? You're in a hurry to submit your work and then they are giving you lecture on how irresponsible you are for losing your IC and ask you to pay RM300 when you have RM87 TO PAY FOR YOUR ASSIGNMENTS ans ask you to make a 'surat rayuan' so that you don't have to pay. Are you guys serious!? I can't punch them in the face obviously so I cried. So what if I look ugly - I have gone through so many things and he even give me a choice - "If you pay me RM160 now, you can get your IC by today," Are they really trying to be funny? Cause it's really not and I was rushing and they have some technical problem. GREAAAAAAT! NOW WHAT? When the system is okay - he asked me again, "do you want to pay?", I answered, "I keep all the money and pay for my final rather than repeating again next semester". Bitchy. I know. Blame the PMS. Enough said.

But out of all the bad things that happened. There are also good things too ya know! :)

There's 6 o'clock breakfast where we will drive to McD and just enjoy an hour of non-sleeping day. Feeding ourselves brain food and enjoying the sunrise for the first time.

There are also 5 o'clock project. HAHA! You have to be there to know!

Then there's the shoulder. To VEENIE and MANAMANA, thanks for comforting me throughout the teary night and day. I will always remember these moments! And also to SYABIL who came all the way from KL to CYBER just to comfort me and lift my spirit up. He can be so sweet sometimes. SOMETIMES. But I love you anyway *hugsandkisses* Oh yeah! And also helping me with my work! You guys are so sweet =') Oh yeah and to SHASHAQ and MAN too! For cutting my business card for me! HAHA! And and PNUT and POCOYO and PONYO for reminding me that I have other life too than just these stressful life. And to THATO for reminding me about my work and forcing me to actually move. THEHE.

And big thanks to FARADYABLE *please search on YOUTUBE. He's just awesome. Peneman waktu TIDAK TENANG. He helped us to release stress with his random video which is so cool! Check them out yo!

Okay. I don't want to make you bored with my whining and how bad I became this semester. So I shall end this blog post with this picture.

I'll miss you guys.

And it's a wrap!

2011-11-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

I JUST HAVE TO DECLARE THIS:

WE'RE DONEEEEE!

I'll be hibernating for a week now. And hopefully won't get any phone calls from the lecturers about my work or anything. Hopefully. Anyway, if you can't reach me, it's either I'll be PARTYING *yeah right, but who knows? hihi* or else I'll be making love with my bed. I have so much to blog about but sleeping comes first on my list! I can't wait to stay on bed all day long, let my hair down and watch TV and catch up with my GLEE and THE WALKING DEAD.

That is all.

Quickie #3

2011-10-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

As we all can see, this is how I torture myself for my final semester for the entire course of BA Graphic Design. I need to get a traffic controller for myself because I think I am out f hand. I forgot things easily because too much things that I need to think about + panicking over final and exhibition. Even I forgot one of my best friend's birthday and my other best friend's sister's wedding if you get what I am trying to say. These little things are the things I can never forget and I did and I feel so bad right now that I feel like killing myself.

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As I was saying, yes. I need to sort this things out before I can start a new chapter of life - WORKING LIFE! But before that obviously I would turn myself upside down until I can turn no more. HOLIDAYYY HERE I COMEEEEEEE! Then real life begin.

On the other note; I feel like screwing up life for once. In a good way, but how can screwing up be good?

P/S: Wish me luck for my finals! =)

Wordless Wednesday #4

2011-10-12T21:56:00.003+08:00

Keep Holding On

2011-09-29T05:34:00.003+08:00

You are not alone in boredom world Adora. I am too, that's why I decided to this. And I just want to get things off my head for awhile :P

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

One Of The Boys - Katy Perry

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

Addicted - Kelly Clarkson

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Electric City - BEP

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Sing - Travis

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Knock You Down - Keri Hilson (Neyo+Kanye West)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Without You - Silverchair

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

This Modern Love - Bloc Party

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Dream Cast Hate - Cassandra // How the hell this song got into my itunes!?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Countdown - Beyonce

WHAT IS 2 + 2?

The First Cut Is The Deepest - Sheryl Crow

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Forget You - Gwyneth Paltrow

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

When You Were Young - The Killers

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The One That Got Away - Katy Perry

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Big Wave - Pearl Jam

WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Just Dance - Lady Gaga *LOL*

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Pink Houses - Chris Colfer

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

4 Minutes - Glee Cast

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Everybody's Fool - Evanescence

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Never Knew I Needed - Ne-Yo

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

Riot Van - Arctic Monkeys

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Rather Die Young - Beyonce

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Keep Holding On - Glee

That was fun. My iTunes knows me very well. HAHA! Or was it just a good coincidence? Anyhow. Back to work. I tag to those are stuck with work or in TEAM BOREDOM! WOOOOOT!

Wordless Wednesday #3

2011-09-28T18:12:00.001+08:00

Quickie #2

2011-09-24T18:12:00.004+08:00

I've lost my mind.

COMPLETELY.

Quickie #1

2011-09-09T05:12:00.002+08:00

Ew. The title sounded so wrong somehow. Anyway just stealing some time to blog a little bit.

I just wanna say - SO MANY TO TELL, SO LITTLE TIME.

I have just finish - well not really finish but at least progressing on my Self-Promo for our Final Year Exhibition. Everyone is invited! Do come. It will be by the end of Nov or somewhere around the month. Please save the dates!

It's 5 o'clock in the morning. I was really into work today and I thank god for that! ALHAMDULILLAH that I have the heart to do my work. A quite help me on this :

"If you don't become the ocean, you'll be seasick everyday" by Leonard Cohen.

It's true though. Why am I whining of something I have wanting to do most? I shall enjoy rather than whine and get distracted with other stuff.

And I bought a Post-It today! I need A LOT of reminder and have been sticking notes around the room. I feel the energy now that I see reminder everywhere.

I think I am off now. I wanted to blog about how my Raya was and stuffs but will do when I am free! (But I don't think I'll be free any time soon) Oh well! Life goes on! :)

Can I borrow a thumb?

2011-08-27T06:57:00.001+08:00

My classmates took part in DiGi Myphone Shorties competition,
and now they need your likes on youtube ! :)

In order to press like in youtube, you'll have to have a youtube account first.
If you have one, just sign into it.
But if you don't have one, go create one by pressing the link below this one :

https://www.google.com/accounts/NewAccount?followup=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Ffinish_ssu&uilel=0&service=youtube&shdf=ChYLEgxub1F1YXJhbnRpbmUaBFRydWUMEgd5b3V0dWJlGgRTSEExIhQkAPpz1U0coqD5XlIXIPYDScoyXigBMhTBV4yYdCmsMNnr-2_kpGvDmAou4w%3D%3D&skipll=true&passive=true&skipvpage=true&continue=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fsignin%3Faction_handle_signin%3Dtrue%26new%3Dtrue%26nomobiletemp%3D1%26hl%3Den_US%26next%3D%252F&hl=en_US&nui=17&ltmpl=ssu2

After you logged in or signed up into youtube, go to this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l61ZzB4GW4M.

It really mean a lot to them and I know they are really good in what they are doing and very passionate about it, so your thumbs would mean a lot to them!

Thanks in advance! :D

p/s : this competition valid until end of August so hurry up and like!

Wordless Wednesday #2

2011-08-24T17:23:00.002+08:00

A story of satay, flour, and eggs.

2011-08-21T02:38:00.001+08:00

We (me, Syabil, Pnut, Shaq, Man and Mia) had our Iftar at SATAY STATION, Ampang.

Then we decided to head on the Taman Tasik Titiwangsa to so called 'hang out'. PFFT!

Then..

Look at this picture. I smelled really bad. And I was really stinky. Also I proved that I can actually run and chase everyone.

Imagine. A date of a person coming out to this world. Eggs. Flour. Do I have to explain. Really?

It actually started from this moment. They were all acting innocent want to capture our picture. How can I not see them not wanting to seat next to me so that they can actually break the eggs on my head and run for their lives? If you can focus on those hand you can clearly the 'plan'. I heard a knocking sound, wasn't suspicious until I felt something slimy on my body - AN EGG!? And when I turn there were flours coming towards me and they were all running for their lives. The rest? Should have been there to know! x)

P/S: Thanks to SYABIL, PNUT, SHAQ, MAN and ALAA for this 'wonderful' surprise! *tangan didada mata ke atas* I'm glad to have you guys! <3

Tuwentiwan : Old is such a strong word

2011-08-19T13:51:00.049+08:00

There this one time where I was talking to Mummy about her giving birth to me at a clinic. She said she goes to the clinic because she prefer the doctor over there. And Mummy were making fun of me because when I was 7 that I actually bumped to Dr Nik, my doctor and he was like, "Oh this is Atika? She's big now!" and I was all shy and stuff and I said, "Obviously I was shy! Isn't it awkward because the doctor is the first one to see me naked! Imagine saying to your husband - you're not the first one to see me naked, NO, it's Dr Nik". We burst out laughing! But it's true though :)

Firstly I want to make a shout out :

Thanks for all the wonderful wishes from wall posts, text messages, tweets and phone calls! You guys really made my day! I received non-stop love all day - even a friend of mine said that it feels like my birthday had gone for 3days 3 nights! You guys rock <3

One text made me cried. A doa from a mother will always go straight to the heart. And I couldn't even see her at the eve of my birthday!

A chill-time at the pool was a nice one, with tea and your coffee and a jar of Nutella and a spoon. It was good enough. I thank you for that.

I had a whole day class. Well spend on my birthday, no? HAHA! But it was alright. I did receive hugs and lots and lots of them! I was so tired after class *probabl tired of growing up* HEHE and I crashed my bed.

Suddenly, I did heard a door bell in my sleep. *ignored* but then PEEPEE was like, "Atika, do you know this person at the door?". I was soooooo sleepy and she actually wanted to drag me out of my bed. I walked and guess what!? NO ONE was there. "Veen, you're so gay". "No, I swear to you there was someone out here!". As I wanted to return to my room, I heard a voice "Hi." with a cake on his hand. OH GOD. Obviously I was acting cool but all I wanna do is hide under the table.

Awak. You're gay. And sometimes I love you for that. Thanks to PNUT too for being his advisor of komplot and VEEN for being the 'insider'. HAHA! But he had to rush to go home but thank you! <3

P/S : I am not old - I am matured now. I can vote! And I vote myself as Puteri Diraja KL! *even though we have no Sultan in KL but I vote for me! x)

Wordless Wednesday #1

2011-08-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

Be Extra Careful In Petrol Stations

2011-08-17T02:03:00.002+08:00

These videos freaked me out. Just be extra careful wherever you are! Especially at the places the least you think that anything will actually happen. I share these videos not to freak you guys out or anything but just to give you prove that anything can happen. Anywhere.

Video 1 . This man got hit by a tire came out of nowhere when he was fueling his car.

Video 2 . The man picks up a call in a petrol station and he ends up being on fire.

Video 3 . A family was hit by a drunken car that skidded inside the petrol station.

P/S : Be safe. Stay safe. Pesanan khidmat masyarakat dari EMB yo!

Language

2011-08-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

I might not have said this but if I ever would have the chance to learn anything else rather than about theories and stuff - language would be one of the thing I would love to learn other than just having to language that I can speak - BM and English. I would like to learn Mandarin, then probably French, then German, then Dutch - for now that s the list of language that I would like to learn - oh wait - Russian would be awesome too. For the person who love to talk, obviously learning language would be such an honor but have you ever consider sign language?

I hang out with one of the most-not-so-cool lecturer in history of me studying in LUCT *kidding* HAHA! Well - he's a cool guy, sharing his thoughts and ideas and information that he has learnt. Moving on, he actually thought us how to speak in sign language in Malaysia. It seems that different country has different sign language like normal languages - so sometimes to them the sign can mean something else. But I have learnt from him just now is Malaysian Sign Language. By having hearing impaired students, they have the chance to learn new things that some might not have the chance to actually learn or not aware of it.

These are just alphabets. There are more cool stuffs of how these special people speak. I feel so special right now! Being part of something special you know! I can actually make a video put of what I have learnt but I am a very shy person *malu* - NOT! HAHA! But if you wanna know what I have learnt, come and hang out with me and I'll teach you some and we all can be excited over this! :D

p/s : I speak too much. Now I can speak silently without making anyone go crazy :P

Aku, Facebook dan Forever Alone

2011-08-16T06:51:00.001+08:00

I once asked on twitter the reason one make several accounts of themselves and all of the accounts are still active. It does bother me really, what is the purpose of having a few accounts when YOU exist in ONE form. Please, can somebody enlighten me but just giving one - not to much but one reason 'kenapa saya buat account dekat facebook banyak-banyak' dengan mengisi tempat kosong ayat ini : SAYA MEMBUAT BEBERAPA ACCOUNT FACEBOOK KERANA __________________ (tidak melebihi sepuluh patah perkataan).

Setelah melihat news feed saya sendiri, dengan ini saya telah menemui beberapa faktor mengapa perkara ini terjadi : SAYA MEMBUAT BEBERAPA ACCOUNT FACEBOOK KERANA __________________.

kipas susah mati saya terlalu ramai yakni tak cukup nak add semua orang kena la buat banyak sikit - kalau artis buatlah fanpage. sekian.
saya nak nama ala-ala kerabat diraja yang selalu ada 'the second', 'the third' atau 'the fourty-eighth'. EG : Nor Atika II. Seronoknya nama ada no roman cenggitu ye dak? baru macam classical sgt nama!
saya ada 10 orang boyfriend dan facebook limit boleh in a relationship dgn sorang je, so nak adil kena la buat banyak. poligami kan digalakkan :)
saya ada split personality. so I need the accounts for all of my personality. Enough said.
supaya saya boleh BUAT 'IN A RELATIONSHIP' WITH MYSELF because I am FOREVER ALONE!

Therefore,

P/S : Google + is the new facebook! Add me up yo! --- http://gplus.to/ecarmiowboyot

Friends, Iftar and Camwhoring

2011-08-15T06:54:00.003+08:00

Time is passing now and we are all getting busy with building our own loves as we grow up but still we try to manage to spare time for each other just because we wanted to. We had our iftar together and looking forward to have more! We have been friends since we were 7 and goes to 12, 13 to 21 y/o now and looking forward to growing old with all of you. Having tea with our grandchildren telling them how friendship does mean a lot to you. Even some did went separate way but the real truth is REAL FRIENDS will always be there for you.

P/S : What's a girls' day out without camwhoring? :P

Hamsters for sale!

2011-08-12T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hey guys! I have a friend who is selling off her hamsters since she'll be continuing her studies this September, so she need someone who can take care of her hamsters! I think she is selling off in a very reasonable prices. Check them out! PM for more info. You can contact me through email, twitter or facebook and we'll make a plan from there :)

Or to make things a lot more easier, contact on her phone : 0176688191

Hamster (Winter white)

Colour - Dark grey

Bullet shaped body, thick dorsal stripe, prominent eyes and roman nose

Cage 1

Colour - Pink

Size - 13 inch x 11 inch

3 male baby hamsters (2 weeks) and 1 mummy hamster (5 months)

RM70

Cage 2

Colour - Turqoise

Size - 10 inch x 10 inch

2 male baby hamsters (2 months)

RM 50 free hamster ball

Two other hamsters : The daddy and the daughter w/o cage.

Gambaran Hari Kiamat

2011-08-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

Gambaran Hari Kiamat

✐ Selepas Malaikat Israfil meniup sangkakala (bentuknya seperti tanduk besar) yang memekakkan telinga, seluruh makhluk mati kecuali Izrail & beberapa malaikat yang lain. Selepas itu, Izrail pun mencabut nyawa malaikat yang tinggal dan akhirnya nyawanya sendiri.

✐ Selepas semua makhluk mati, Tuhan pun berfirman mafhumnya “Kepunyaan siapakah kerajaan hari ini?” Tiada siapa yang menjawab. Lalu Dia sendiri menjawab dengan keagunganNya “Kepunyaan Allah Yang Maha Esa lagi Maha Perkasa.” Ini menunjukkan kebesaran & keagunganNya sebagai Tuhan yg Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Kekal Hidup, tidak mati.

✐ Selepas 40 tahun, Malaikat Israfil a.s. dihidupkan, seterusnya meniup sangkakala untuk kali ke-2, lantas seluruh makhluk hidup semula di atas bumi putih, berupa padang Mahsyar (umpama padang Arafah) yang rata tidak berbukit atau bulat seperti bumi.

✐ Sekelian manusia hidup melalui benih anak Adam yg disebut “Ajbuz Zanbi” yang berada di hujung tulang belakang mereka. Hiduplah manusia umpama anak pokok yang kembang membesar dari biji benih.

✐ Semua manusia dan jin dibangkitkan dalam keadaan telanjang dan hina. Mereka tidak rasa malu kerana pada ketika itu hati mereka sangat takut dan bimbang tentang nasib & masa depan yang akan mereka hadapi kelak.

✐ Lalu datanglah api yang berterbangan dengan bunyi seperti guruh yang menghalau manusia, jin dan binatang ke tempat perhimpunan besar. Bergeraklah mereka menggunakan tunggangan (bagi yang banyak amal), berjalan kaki (bagi yang kurang amalan) dan berjalan dengan muka (bagi yang banyak dosa). Ketika itu, ibu akan lupakan anak, suami akan lupakan isteri, setiap manusia sibuk memikirkan nasib mereka.

✐ Setelah semua makhluk dikumpulkan, matahari dan bulan dihapuskan cahayanya, lalu mereka tinggal dalam kegelapan tanpa cahaya. Berlakulah huru-hara yang amat dahsyat.

✐ Tiba-tiba langit yang tebal pecah dengan bunyi yang dahsyat, lalu turunlah malaikat sambil bertasbih kepada Allah SWT. Seluruh makhluk terkejut melihat saiz malaikat yang besar dan suaranya yang menakutkan.

✐ Kemudian matahari muncul semula dengan kepanasan yang berganda. Hingga dirasakan seakan-akan matahari berada sejengkal dari atas kepala mereka. Ulama berkata jika matahari naik di bumi seperti keadaannya naik dihari Kiamat nescaya seluruh bumi terbakar, bukit-bukau hancur dan sungai menjadi kering. Lalu mereka rasai kepanasan dan bermandikan peluh sehingga peluh mereka menjadi lautan. Timbul atau tenggelam mereka bergantung pada amalan masing-masing. Keadaan mereka berlanjutan sehingga 1000 tahun.

✐ Terdapat satu telaga kepunyaan Nabi Muhammad SAW bernama Al-Kausar yang mengandungi air yang hanya dapat diminum oleh orang mukmin sahaja. Orang bukan mukmin akan dihalau oleh malaikat yang menjaganya. Jika diminum airnya tidak akan haus selama-lamanya. Kolam ini berbentuk segi empat tepat sebesar satu bulan perjalanan. Bau air kolam ini lebih harum dari kasturi, warnanya lebih putih dari susu dan rasanya lebih sejuk dari embun. Ia mempunyai saluran yang mengalir dari syurga.

✐ Semua makhluk berada bawah cahaya matahari yang terik kecuali 7 golongan yang mendapat teduhan dari Arasy. Mereka ialah:

ⅰ- Pemimpin yang adil.

ⅱ- Orang muda yang taat kepada perintah Allah.

ⅲ- Lelaki yang terikat hatinya dengan masjid.

ⅳ- Dua orang yang bertemu kerana Allah dan berpisah kerana Allah.

ⅴ- Lelaki yang diajak oleh wanita berzina, tetapi dia menolak dengan berkata “Aku takut pada Allah”.

ⅵ- Lelaki yg bersedekah dengan bersembunyi (tidak diketahui orang ramai).

ⅶ- Lelaki yang suka bersendirian mengingati Allah lalu mengalir air matanya kerana takutkan Allah.

✐ Oleh kerana tersangat lama menunggu di padang mahsyar, semua manusia tidak tahu berbuat apa melainkan mereka yang beriman, kemudian mereka terdengar suara “pergilah berjumpa dengan para Nabi”. Maka mereka pun pergi mencari para Nabi. Pertama sekali kumpulan manusia ini berjumpa dengan Nabi Adam tetapi usaha mereka gagal kerana Nabi Adam a.s menyatakan beliau juga ada melakukan kesalahan dengan Allah SWT. Maka kumpulan besar itu kemudiannya berjumpa Nabi Nuh a.s., Nabi Ibrahim a.s., Nabi Musa a.s., Nabi Isa a.s. (semuanya memberikan sebab seperti Nabi Adam a.s.) dan akhirnya mereka berjumpa Rasullullah SAW. Jarak masa antara satu nabi dengan yang lain adalah 1000 tahun perjalanan.

✐ Lalu berdoalah baginda Nabi Muhammad SAW ke hadrat Allah SWT. Lalu diperkenankan doa baginda.

✐ Selepas itu, terdengar bunyi pukulan gendang yang kuat hingga menakutkan hati semua makhluk kerana mereka sangka azab akan turun. Lalu terbelah langit, turunlah arasy Tuhan yang dipikul oleh 8 orang malaikat yang sangat besar (besarnya sejarak perjalanan 20 ribu tahun) sambil bertasbih dengan suara yang amat kuat sehingga ‘Arasy itu tiba dibumi.

✐ ‘Arasy ialah jisim nurani yang amat besar berbentuk kubah (bumbung bulat) yang mempunyai 4 batang tiang yang sentiasa dipikul oleh 4 orang malaikat yang besar dan gagah. Dalam bahasa mudah ia seumpama istana yang mempunyai seribu bilik yang menempatkan jutaan malaikat di dalamnya. Ia dilingkungi embun yang menghijab cahayanya yang sangat kuat.

✐ Kursi iaitu jisim nurani yang terletak di hadapan Arasy yang dipikul oleh 4 orang malaikat yang sangat besar. Saiz kursi lebih kecil dari ‘Arasy umpama cincin ditengah padang . Dalam bahasa mudah ia umpama singgahsana yang terletak dihadapan istana.

✐ Seluruh makhluk pun menundukkan kepala kerana takut. Lalu dimulakan timbangan amal. Ketika itu berterbanganlah kitab amalan masing-masing turun dari bawah Arasy menuju ke leher pemiliknya tanpa silap dan tergantunglah ia sehingga mereka dipanggil untuk dihisab. Kitab amalan ini telah ditulis oleh malaikat Hafazhah / Raqib & ‘Atid / Kiraman Katibin.

✐ Manusia beratur dalam saf mengikut Nabi dan pemimpin masing- masing. Orang kafir & munafik beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim. Setiap pengikut ada tanda mereka tersendiri untuk dibezakan.

✐ Umat yang pertama kali dihisab adalah umat Nabi Muhammad SAW, dan amalan yang pertama kali dihisab adalah solat. Sedangkan hukum yang pertama kali diputuskan adalah perkara pertumpahan darah.

✐ Apabila tiba giliran seseorang hendak dihisab amalannya, malaikat akan mencabut kitab mereka lalu diserahkan, lalu pemiliknya mengambil dengan tangan kanan bagi orang mukmin dan dengan tangan kiri jika orang bukan mukmin.

✐ Semua makhluk akan dihisab amalan mereka menggunakan satu Neraca Timbangan. Saiznya amat besar, mempunyai satu tiang yang mempunyai lidah dan 2 daun. Daun yang bercahaya untuk menimbang pahala dan yang gelap untuk menimbang dosa.

✐ Acara ini disaksikan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW dan para imam 4 mazhab untuk menyaksikan pengikut masing-masing dihisab.

✐ Perkara pertama yang diminta ialah Islam. Jika dia bukan Islam, maka seluruh amalan baiknya tidak ditimbang bahkan amalan buruk tetap akan ditimbang.

✐ Ketika dihisab, mulut manusia akan dipateri, tangan akan berkata- kata, kaki akan menjadi saksi. Tiada dolak-dalih dan hujah tipuan. Semua akan di adili oleh Allah Ta’ala dengan Maha Bijaksana.

✐ Setelah amalan ditimbang, mahkamah Mahsyar dibuka kepada orang ramai untuk menuntut hak masing-masing dari makhluk yang sedang dibicara sehinggalah seluruh makhluk berpuas hati dan dibenarkannya menyeberangi titian sirat.

✐ Syafaat Nabi Muhammad SAW di akhirat :

ⅰ- Meringankan penderitaan makhluk di Padang Mahsyar dengan mempercepatkan hisab.

ⅱ- Memasukkan manusia ke dalam syurga tanpa hisab.

ⅲ- Mengeluarkan manusia yang mempunyai iman sebesar zarah dari neraka.

(Semua syafaat ini tertakluk kepada keizinan Allah SWT.)

✐ Para nabi dan rasul serta golongan khawas juga diberikan izin oleh Tuhan untuk memberi syafaat kepada para pengikut mereka. Mereka ini berjumlah 70 000. Setiap seorang dari mereka akan mensyafaatkan 70 000 orang yang lain.

✐ Setelah berjaya dihisab, manusia akan mula berjalan menuju syurga melintasi jambatan sirat. Siratul Mustaqim ialah jambatan (titian) yang terbentang dibawahnya neraka. Lebar jambatan ini adalah seperti sehelai rambut yang dibelah tujuh dan ia lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Bagi orang mukmin ia akan dilebarkan dan dimudahkan menyeberanginya.

✐ Fudhail bin Iyadh berkata perjalanan di Sirat memakan masa 15000 tahun. 5000 tahun menaik, 5000 tahun mendatar dan 5000 tahun menurun. Ada makhluk yang melintasinya seperti kilat, seperti angin, menunggang binatang korban dan berjalan kaki. Ada yang tidak dapat melepasinya disebabkan api neraka sentiasa menarik kaki mereka, lalu mereka jatuh ke dalamnya.

✐ Para malaikat berdiri di kanan dan kiri sirat mengawasi setiap makhluk yang lalu. Setiap 1000 orang yang meniti sirat, hanya seorang sahaja yang Berjaya melepasinya. 999 orang akan terjatuh ke dalam neraka.

Rujukan: Kitab Aqidatun Najin karangan Syeikh Zainal Abidin Muhammad Al- Fathani. Pustaka Nasional Singapura 2004.

☞ Jika sekiranya kalian ingin mengumpul saham akhirat, sampaikanlah ilmu ini kepada sahabat² yang lain. Sepertimana sabda Rasulullah SAW: ❝ Sampaikanlah pesananku walaupun satu ayat. ❞ Sesungguhnya apabila matinya seseorang anak Adam itu, hanya 3 perkara yang akan dibawanya bersama :

① Sedekah/amal jariahnya.

② Doa anak²nya yang soleh.

③ Ilmu yang bermanfaat yang disampaikannya kepada orang lain.

P/S : Semoga ini memberi kesedaran kepada kita semua. InsyaALLAH.

That is extremely long -.-

2011-08-09T03:34:00.000+08:00

We were sitting in the car on the way to Sunway - then suddenly this conversation happened :

ESYA : Kaka, nanti kaka kena panggil Ayesha nama baru, okay?
ME : Nama apa?
ESYA : Nama baru Ayesha - Nor Ayesha Blackberry Princess Barbie Snow White Mermaid, okay?
ME : Panjangnyaaaa! Nickname takde ke?
ESYA : Tak boleh! Cuba panggil Ayesha cepat.
ME : Ayesha.
ESYA : Bukan lah! Yang nama Ayesha bagi tu la! UH! *muka merajuk*
ME : FINE. -.- Nor Ayesha Blackberry Princess Barbie Snow White ~
ESYA : Mermaid?
ME : ERGH. Nor Ayesha Blackberry Princess Barbie Snow White Mermaid ~
ESYA : Saya :)
ME : *rolls eyes*

Budak sakit 'bontot'. Jangan tegur nanti berjangkit katanya. Ni dari PNUT la ni!

Panda vs Cat.

2011-08-06T00:09:00.002+08:00

PANDAS ARE FAT. I AM FAT.

Therefore, I am a PANDA.

but wait. how can I be a cat and a panda at the same time?

OH WAIT!

MARU IS FAT. MARU IS A CAT.

I AM A FAT CAT.

Therefore I am MARU! I'm a genius!

I am just stressed. When I stress I feel like eating. And even though it's Ramadhan I still feel fat. Mungkin nak divert the stress feeling of assignments and and try to stay calm and salahkan lemak-lamak yang berada didalam badan. Terasa seperti I have gained weight over the holidays and I feel fat every time buka. Probably because angin - or maybe I eat everything I could in half an hour. Bunyik sangat seperti buruk lantak but tak pun. Selalu makan roti john (which is a must for me), then karipap. lepas tu makan laksa ke, atau apa apa yang one set dah sedia la. Manade makan lauk lauk pun yet i feel so bloated every time. Mungkin kerana mind set nak makan. Padahal boleh je makan ringan ringan dulu. Lepas solat ke makan la yang lain ye dak? Nafsu gelojoh. Buat malu je. Hihi.

Neway, lepas ni nak cuba makan ringan-ringan. Nak buat exercise ringan-ringan gak - probably stretching and skipping and hope that will help. InsyaALLAH ada usaha ada la ganjarannya en en?

p/s : aren't they just adorable?

Salam Ramadhan 2011

2011-08-02T00:10:00.050+08:00

First of all I would like to wish all of you Salam Ramadhan! Sila jangan ponteng puasa kepada yang boleh puasa dan semoga kita mendapat lebih pertunjuk dan hidayah di bulan yang mulia ini :)

One thing that most people would be crazy for during Ramadhan other than shopping for Raya is Pasar Ramadhan! YEAYYYYY! Tahukah anda Pasar Ramadhan yang disingkatkan adalaha #PARAM? Sangat busuk bunyiknya -.-

Kalau nak pergi kena la plan dulu ye dak? Sebelum pergi ke PARAM - adui - busuk - okay - sebelum ke bazaar, niat supaya taknak membazir lepas tu plan awal-awal nak beli apa. Jangan risau. Puasa ada 30 hari. INSYAALLAH ada rezeki boleh makan semua okay? Lagipun selalunya akan membawa ke pembaziran. *sekarang dah tau pegang duit sendiri baru tau berjimat* Lepas tu, bawak bertenang dan bersabar - bersabar itu sebahagian dari iman. Ramai orang tu memang lah. Sesak tu memang lah. Jadi bawak-bawak bertenang. Kalau orang jalan lambat tu jangan le marah-marah. Ini sebab dah kena marah. Ala ramai, mesti lah ada yang jalan slow. Kalau nak cepat sila lah potong tapi jangan sampai tolak-tolak. Tau la lapar. Semua orang bertahan lapar dan dahaga dari pagi tau! -.- lepas tu, sila focus. Jangan nak amik kesempatan mengumpat pulak. CONTOH: "Eeeee, tgk budak tu banyak gila makan patut ah kurus!". Tu contoh je la. Tapi bukan setakat kaum perempuan sahaja, kaum lelaki pun sama! Jangan lupa jada adab-adab yang lain kat sana. Kalau lapar semua orang kena marah kan? semua jadi HUNGRY BIRDS!

Saje je nak meluahkan rasa emosi dekat sini. Sebab first day pergi tak membuahkan hasil. Semua benda habis. Last-last makan McD je. TAKBEST LANGSUNG! NAK ROTI JOHN!

Okay tu je. Jom tarawikh! Tapi solat lima waktu dahulukan dulu. Selamat berpuasa :D

They took my life away.

2011-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

I once told my mom that my second choice career is to join the army. She doesn't want me to. But I really want to! Okay fine - I'll marry one instead. HAHA! Moving on - when I registered for Bachelor of Arts in LUCT - I really don't remember signing up for military course by the end of the semester. SERIOUSLY.

The briefing of our Graphic Design 392 is not as pretty as we imagined. We were told that the lecturer would be strict. This time she is. The way she explained made me want to pee in my pants. Even when my friend whispered something to my other friend, she said "If you want to ask something ask me. Don't talk to your friends because she might have the wrong information," with a very COMMANDO-ish kind of tune. Our heart stopped like literally and I don't even dare to breathe during the whole class.

She gave us an early notice saying that we would have no life this semester because we would have 5 projects and each project due is 3 weeks time. And ONE PROJECT is not easy. But it's good though. They are training us for time management. Hopefully this time I won't be fooling around. I WON'T. This is my last semester so I have to give all out to ensure that I will at least be listed or be remembered as one of the best!

"THIS IS FUN RIGHHHTTT?", she asked us with a big smile on her face. We froze.

Oh well - FINE. Take the whole 4 months of my life with no mercy. I'll get ready with some tissues because I can assure you that there will be crying. Then after that - REAL LIFE. That is more scarier that this semester I bet. Thinking of if make me want to stop the time and froze.

P/S : I really need all of the positive thoughts that I could have. ALL THE BEST TO GDD8!

Birthday 2010 #4 // My LEO man!

2011-07-30T05:45:00.012+08:00

A leo is always sexy. You're the only exception. HAHA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIOR AHMAD SYABIL BIN MOHAMED SAPAWI!

(Nak letak no I/C sekali ke?)

Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki dan dan semoga kahwin cepat! Jangan lupa jemput nanti okay! *klu supaya kumpul duit cepat-cepat :P

I love you more than you know.

P/S : thanks to PNUT and SHAQ and MAN and KHALIQ!

I have been given the chance to ROAR!

2011-07-27T00:49:00.001+08:00

If you have been reading my blog posts *thank you by the way* you might notice that in one of the posts that I said that I think I have neglected my own team a little bit when it comes to football. I can name all *okay, not all - the sexy ones* of the blues but not my own team. HARIMAU MALAYA. I feel really bad and guess what!? I scored two tickets and two jerseys to watch them play this THURSDAY! Malaysia vS Singapore 2nd match for World Cup 2014 qualification! How cool is that? Be jealous people be jealous! All this thanks to @every1connects <--- follow them! NO REGRETS I'm telling you! This is the second time they made me happy. First was for Urbanscapes tix now this!

Anyway, it started when I was extremely bored and I really don't know what to do, and I saw this tweet :

And I was like - okay, since I am so extremely bored, no harm trying. Who knows I got lucky too this time. And then I RT-ed them - twice. It was just for fun. But then they said they got the winners and counting. I dunno why I felt that I really really wanna win - I kept on refreshing my mention. Can you imagine how desperate I was? HAHA! Anyway, when I was about to give up refreshing, this came out :

I was stunned. YES. But then I got excited that I won! HAHA! I know everyone actually lined up since morning to buy the tickets, even my friends are frustrated. I really feel bad for you guys, I do but I really want to take this opportunity to actually appreciate my own team! :P

Not just that - we got a surprise from them that the winners will be getting free jerseys! Now I don't have to be worried of what to wear. YEAY! Hot buys running around in sweat this Thursday! Me like!

P/S : I think I am born to cheer for people. Which gives me and idea! JENG JENG JENG! *bunyi ala ala seram la kan* See ya at the stadium! XD

THIS WILL BE THE LAST. Hopefully.

2011-07-26T15:15:00.049+08:00

With the heat. And the stress. Cum PMS. In addition of NOT sleeping because I got caught up playing THE SIMS. No. It's really not the right time to piss me off really. Thank God no one got hurt today. *seriousface*

I really really hope this is going to be the last time I suffer. I really thought that things will get easier for us as we move forward but nOoooooOooOoooo - they still have to get on our nerves. I wonder why.

I am not complaining *which I really am right now* but why give hope so high when there is no hope. Wait. Let me put it in a way that everyone will easily understand - why do you state there : (please choose one) when there is nothing to choose really? Why take care of the outside where the insides are so much important to!?

I am upset. Yes. I am and I want you guys to know that I am upset. I really don't like people ruining my plan without telling me the reason why. And I don't like last minute plan or last minute changes.

But when bad things happen. I will try my best to turn it around. I'll try to stay calm - I did try - and I end up cursing every single car that pass by me while driving and cursing every single person who cut in the line while waiting at the bursary. Yes. I am not the only one that has been waiting since morning but at least I wait for MUH FAHKING TURN WIZ MUH FAHKING NUMBERZ!

Moving on. Then I search of inspiration. The things that actually made me excited for semester 8 earlier of the month. Then I opened the student portal. And browse to my result. And suddenly I felt good. I did well. We actually survived the subject which we thought we might flunked due to the THE PROBLEMS THAT WE GOT TO FACE AND THEY MANAGED TO SOLVE IT BY THE END OF THE SEMESTER. Moving on, we actually did. And that reminded me of whatever challenges or any difficulties that came in my life. I actually put myself together and smash them. And I smashed them hard!

So then I realized, why whine? I actually like challenges. They make my life more fun. And more exciting than life normally do. I was pissed probably because of this monthly hormone imbalanced. I forgive myself for sometimes confusing my own brain until made my mouth sound so stupid.

So this is going to be the last subjects I'll be taking :

Graphic Design 392
Visual Communication Practice 392
Design Reflective Practice 392
Introduction to Animation

So now I am pumped for semester 8! Oh yeah. My GPA went down CGPA went up. Now for semester 8. I have to GIVE ALL OUT! Watch out semester 8. And please be nice. And I promise I won't be bothering you after graduation! :P I'm so exciteeedddddd!

P/S : Excuse the mood swings of this post.

I think I'm Turning Lesbian.

2011-07-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

Look at her. How can you say NO to that face? I really can't get my eyes off her. The more I watch GLEE, the more deeper I fell for her. She's like a Barbie - NO - she is better than Barbie that makes Barbie wants to be her. I'm in love.

I LOVE YOU DIANNA AGRON!

Yellow Tiger vs White Lion #3

2011-07-22T04:55:00.002+08:00

Are you ready? This is going to be kinda long post because there's a few things I like to share with all of you so just bare with me okay? Apology in advance if you think this post is just going nowhere! THEHE :P

The Game

Today was Chelsea Asia Tour 2011 - a friendly match between THE BLUES and THE YELLOW TIGER ended with 1-0, scored by Drogba in the 80th minutes of game time. There are a few things that I would like to share that I think a few highlights of the game.

PETR CECH wasn't on the field. I REPEAT. PETR CECH WAS NOT ON THE FIELD. A very big disappointment for me! I was so excited that we can sit near the goal so that I can see his hotness clearly but he's not feeling so well and I don't want him to hurt himself so - he's forgiven!

Then there was a few BOO-es that you can hear from the crowd. And everytime this player of number 10 touches the ball - the crowd will go "BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO". I was confused. I asked my friend, "Who are they actually boo-ing and why?". And they actually BOO-ed Benayoun because he's from Israel - a Jewish. You know - I really am not the type of person who mix race/religion - but you know - imagine getting BOO-ed in front of a crowd. Not professional enough and quite a disappointment that night. Why mix race/religion into something general like football? Now people are calling Malaysian as racist just because of the BOO-incident and kept on telling that he's being abused mentally. Kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga. I am not sure how to put that in english and too lazy too google it so yeah. You get what I mean. And another incident of BOO-ing is when Jose Bosingwa actually got pissed when the referee said that it's Malaysia's ball when he actually got ready to threw the ball in, he then threw the ball at the referee and that shows disrespect to the referee so after that incident, when he got the ball, he got BOO-ed too. Sad, I know. I can't imagine being BOO-ed in front of a crowd. I'll crawl under a rock and never come out even if Patrick kick me out form his house. Takde kena mengena. I know.

Then there's the goal. As we all know that Drogba scored by free kick. But it doesn't have that 'WOW' factor. There's some issue and we thought it didn't got in but apparently it did. However. Quite disappointed of the goal.

I should report on the behalf of MALAYSIAN team too - I should! I think we really really played well - after the two match - they say we lack of defend team but now when both didn't really score any goal as much as people think they should - people will say - "ala, game main-main je tu. ntah pape ntah". After 4-0 with Arsenal, 6-3 with Liverpool, I think they improved somehow. I can't really tell who are the MALAYSIAN players to be honest but I was on #teammalaysia that night eventhough I know the blues better than them but I know we rock! *I promise I will do more research on #teammalaysia so that I know my own team too! :) I realize that Malaysia is getting better now and I believe in love yourself before you love somebody else - so yeah will put MALAYSIA first above the rest!

As a quote that I saw "If you can't recognize your TRUE COLOUR, you better get yourself another flag". OUCH! But it's true though. Like really. A quote that all MALAYSIAN should be aware of.

Don't you think that Andre Villa-Boas is HOT? SERIOUSLY. Okay this is not really the highlight of the game but he is REALLY HOT. I might focus on the bench rather on the goal now. HAHA!

The Transportation

Do you know that TERMINAL BERSEPADU SELATAN is ready and already in service? I am quite impressed with the place really. I've heard some people whine about how bad the place is and how hard it is to get transportation from there to home. From my personal opinion - people can't just get enough of they have. BETUL. Ada saje yang tak kena. Anyhow - the place is somewhat like KL Sentral only it in in Bandar Tasik Selatan.

Yeah - we actually parked in TBS and took the LRT STAR to Bukit Jalil. It must be crowded over BJ since everyone is going there so we decided to take the public transportation. It's been a while since we got on LRT STAR. Pergi okay je. Balik? HAHA. We actually waited and we got on the train on the 3rd trip. Banyaklah aksi tolak menolah dan himpit menghimpit. EVERYBODY wants to go home and pushing doesn't help you to get in! - well - it does actually but still! ERGH. Being a girl sometimes can be hard when people try to take some opportunity to 'gesel-gesel' near you in a crowded place - imagine the sweat and the smell - SABAR JELAH. But it is really easy too - with a smile you can get away from things easily - like - lining up to get out from the station - everyone is pushing but you know guys how they wanted to be known as 'gentlemen' and they give way to girls first. Girls rules. Period.

Other than that? They day was spent well. They was screaming. And laughing out loud with the people that I really can just be myself. What else you can ask? Now enjoy the pictures! But no stealing! *bajet ada orang nak curik en* Forgive my hyper-activeness!

P/S: I really REALLY miss playing SPORTS and I REALLY REALLY want to join either touch rugby, hockey, netball or tennis and take them seriously. Or at least dance. I miss being in a team.

Yellow Tiger vs White Lion #2

2011-07-20T02:54:00.001+08:00

Hellooooo! Can I see the amount of hands of THE BLUES ARMY out there!? Come on don't be shy - why should you? All together now! "Blue is the colour, football is out game~" CHELSEA CHELSEA! I am currently still hyper an energetic up until now eventhough all I want to do is make love with my bed. But when I'm here. I am too excited to upload all those sexy pictures that I took and upload it straight to my blog. I am tired still - with a little bit of headache but I am soooo sooooo sooooooo EXCITED. I know. I told you but you know the feeling of being happy and smiling all around your face till you can't smile no more?

I still can't believe that I was at the closest distance with THE BLUES! I feel like screaming and jumping and go crazy! - which I actually did when the came out to the field! The guys who was sitting in front of us was laughing but it's okay - I was too happy too care how ugly and mentally I looked like. THEHE! I really wish that I could see them in Stamford Bridge but Bukit Jalil is a good start :)

This is just the training and I have gone crazy! My total concentration was at the GOALIE side obviously - PETR CECH was oh so dreammy - he was waving at me, smiling and even threw me a flying kiss AT ME! - in my imagination but still he looks hot as always! BHAHAHAHA! *Sorry SYABIL but I really couldn't help it melting over those sexy asses running on the field. I still love you though*

I really can't describe how happy I am and really couldn't wait for THURSDAY! Let these pictures tell how the rest of the day went <3

I see BLUE everywhere!

Me and Mr Me :)

Chelsea habis! :D

Me and The Other Me! <3

Then there's the RETARDS! HAHA!

We were so sexcitedddd!

The ambience.

Mr Chelsea @ John Terry

Who can spot my boyfriend? :)

No need to go on your knee baby - I do! HEHE!

My baby doing his thang - gah - HOT!

More pictures are on FB if you really want to see and there are a few videos that would be awesome to share but currently there's some error which I couldn't understand and too lazy too understand. So there you have it! My so called ~~training day~~ DATE with them! next date will be on THURSDAY! See ya real soon :)

P/S : Time flies fast. Next week is registration week. GAH! Time, Y U NO SLOW A BIT? T.T

Yellow Tiger VS White Lion #1

2011-07-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

OH EMM GHEEEEE! Like I can't believe that my boyfriends has arrived safely at One World Hotel, PJ. Sorry I couldn't make it to welcome you guys but I really can't wait for our dates which fall on 19th JULY and 21st JULY! I really dunno what to wear right nowww - cause ya know - this is like our first official date - I wanna look good for you boys! *screaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmsssss*fainted*

HAHA. Sangat BIMBO-ish tak? But anyways! I'm sooooo looking forward to meeting them! We couldn't catch the in Stamford Bridge but we manage to get tickets to see them in Bukit Jalil! I'm still confused wheter to wear blue or yellow but then again, nothing beatx the TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU :)

P/S : Stay tune for more updates on the training and the match! YEAYYYYY!

It's like 'Irreplaceable' all over again!

2011-07-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Beyonce // Best Thing I never Had

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and and baby yes I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out
[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

p/s : I can't wait to get my hands on her album - 4! *tapi radio dalam kereta belum repair lagi. Oh well.

I felt really bad.

2011-07-09T08:38:00.001+08:00

This thing happened on Thursday where SHAQ decided to just drop by at my house. But this time she took the Putra LRT to Jelatek and I have to fetch her there. So she texted me that she has arrived but I have to wait for MUMMY since she is going for her physio too. Then suddenly I received a text from her saying that she is really scared and ask me to come and fetch her quickly. I felt really bad for making her wait *sorry Shaq* and fetch her straight away.

So here is the real story : She texted me saying that and old lady approached her and wanted to tag along with her to go home. I know this sounds really rude to say no but what else can we do? When I reached the LRT station, she quickly jumped into my car and guess what? -- the old lady decided to quickly walked to my car too! we were obviously scared. She's really old and tiny. I really feel bad by leaving her outside. It was drizzling that time. She was knocking on the window and MUMMY also didn't know what to do and we just left her just like that. It was quite embarrassing where everyone was looking at us like we are some ungrateful children leaving their mother all alone with no help at all. SHAQ said she approached everyone and and asked for some money too. So it's not really our fault.

I felt bad the whole day until now - which is, what? three days ago that this thing happened? I wonder how is the old lady. Are the children aware of her absence? Is she alone? Why is she out? I really really feel very very guilty for leaving her but I am sorry. This is just one case, how about the other cases where these old people or other disabled people are being used for syndicates. Where are their families? Can you imagine: one day you are hanging around with your friend when one beggar approached you and when you turn around, it's one of your family members. How would you feel? Dear GOD, I hope all of our family members are in good condition and in good health and hopefully we are being disassociated with these kind of problems.

P/S : Dear MUMMY and AYAH, I promise you that I will take good care of you too and won't ever let anything bad happen to you guys. Harap dijauhkan dari tergolong diantara anak-anak derhaka. Amin.

RANDOM THOUGHTS #6

2011-07-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

Have you ever sit back and look at a person and point to them and say, "we used to be close". And have you ever try to think back, what did happen. Why are you not that close anymore? Distance? Schools? Age? A fight? That person was one of the people who you hang out with 24/7 but now when you guys meet - the only thing you guys share -"how's life", * cricket* "well, I gotta go now".

Try to look into your pictures folders or albums or a box or wherever you choose to keep your pictures and dig deeper. Look at you old photos.Try to remember each of the person inside it. Can you name all of them? Name one thing that remind you of them the most.

Starting from housing friend / neighbors where you became friends with them and then you got into pre-school where you get more friends. We were still naive and still new in 'friendship' and consider everyone as our friend. Then you head into primary school where you gain more friends. You started to learn little things call circle or gang or what ever you want to call your group of close friend. Then you guys got into secondary school. More friends are made. Have you ever look back at the people who was your friend? Did you represent your school in any extra-curricular activities? Did you bump into your old friend - the one that you use to hang out with? What was your reaction? Then you got into college. Looking at what you have gone through - in college - people are more focused towards building up their careers rather than making friends. Most of them will still hang out with their high-school friends. They might pick a friend or two or three or more but what will happen after graduation?

I am not sure if you get what I am trying to say right here but have you ever wonder - FRIENDS - who will stay with you and who will actually leave? If they leave, is there any specific reason why? My college buddies are the ones who has been there for me for quite a some time while my other friends are busy doing the same thing - then after graduating - are we gonna still be friends? Are we going to end up bumping into each other in the shopping mall by saying "HI" and the rest are just silence? If one of us is willing to say HI, what if we just walk pass each other and act like a total stranger?

I was just wondering and I felt so bad for not knowing what to say with an old friend when we bump into each other. Do you have that one friend that you were so close too last year - and then things grew apart and you are a total strangers this year? Is this feeling normal or am I not being a good friend? A friend of mine told me these - "we are only granted with two hands and shoulders. You do not have the strengths to carry ALL if you really want to. You might left some behind and the ones that really wants to be with you will hang on to you no matter what". I was thinking the same. It's just that - looking back makes me miss some little things that made me smile for a while. Did I ever had the chance to thank those who stayed with me for a period of time?

I should thank every single person that called me their friend and to those who doesn't mind I call them mine. So, THANK YOU :)

Designers can't survive.

2011-07-03T03:05:00.001+08:00

"I am not trying to discourage you or anything but I have a friend who studied for masters in design and he graduated 12 years ago and he still doesn't get any job. Until he then decided to work as a lecturer. I don't think you can survive as a designer". A guy told me when he asked me what am I doing for my current study.

I wouldn't say I disagree with what you are trying to tell me sir but then again - you can't categorize people at the same level. If you want to go somewhere, you have to move. I can't say anything about your friend because I don't know him but you do, you don't know me but I do and maybe some of the others do too but not you. We have been aware of how to survive in this line and all of the consequences-or-whatsoever that we need to know. I know you are trying to help but just let me graduate first then we'll see how my future will go.

Being a designer is a very competitive thing to do. I AGREE. Why? Because anyone who knows AI and PSD can claim themselves as designers. They don;t have to go through degree or anything like some of us did and still call themselves as a designers. I am not blaming them actually because maybe it is their luck for not having a diploma or a degree but still they survive like some who have masters but couldn't find any suitable job for themselves.

When we are trying to talk about LUCK in surviving the field, well - luck doesn't come without any effort. Like I said, if you wanna go somewhere, MOVE - even if it's just tiny little steps. And have a lot of patience. Biasalah, duduk bawah memang susah sikit - unless you have some leaping stones that awaits you, then JUMP!

From my opinion, whatever you want to do, whether it involves design, math, science, formulas, all of the spices or ingredients or garments or whatsoever - everyone have to follow the steps to be a successful person one day. If it's not meant to be, maybe you were meant to be something else which maybe even better! And BTW - isn't the 'friend' of this guy actually found his job as a lecturer? Why he told me as if his friend is not a successful person? Maybe not as a designer but probably as a lecturer. I wonder.

P/S : Take criticism positively. What say you other designers in the making? Suggestions and advice are highly appreciated!

Oh yes, check this out too -- The Difference Between Art and Design :)

Pot Pet Pot Pet!

2011-07-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

"KAKA, kita sama sama cantik kan?", "mana ESYA tau?". "yelaaa, nenek KAKA sama cantik dengan ESYA kan?". "Ha'aahhlaaaa", mummy mestilah iya kan je, ye dak? "ee tgk ni", sambil mendekatkan tangannya dengan ku lantas berkata "kita sama HITAM laaaaaa". HAHAHAHAHAHA. Adoi budak ni. SENTAPPPPP!

Yeaappp, SI TOYOL dah besar dah pun. Bercakap mngalahkan orang tua betul. Semua benda nak ikut. Pantang kalau dengar perkataan yag dia tau mesti tanya, "ni cakap pasal sape ni? pasal ESYA ke?". Ek'elehh, dia ingat pe best sangat ke cakap pasal dia? HAHA. But she would say thing that you won't expect. Here's another conversation with her:

I was spreading chocolate all over my teeth like to make my teeth look at it's worst, pastu aku pun panggil la ESYA, dan senyummmmmmm :)

"EE, apa tu kat gigi tu? makan elok elok laaaa!", and I was pretending like there was nothing on my teeth. "Jilat la kat gigi tuu", and I was laughing with PNUT then suddenly she scolded me and say, "EE, ESYA tak suka la kawan dengan orang gigi kotor!", BHAHAHAHA! we burst out laughing. Sumpah lah ESYA ni macam mak nenek!

You should listen to her conversation. Tu la ESYA, kawan dengan nenek kau lagi, kan dah perangai cam orang tua. HAHAHAHAHA.

P/S : family time is always a good time :)

Am I okay?

2011-06-27T01:31:00.001+08:00

Some stories are better unsaid or untold rather than it will been taken in a wrong way.

Perfection does not exist in any form.

P/S : to tell you the truth, I guess I am okay, in a way. at least I still have many reasons to be happy. I think.

YOU.

2011-06-25T00:04:00.000+08:00

take note.

One more to go!

2011-06-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hello hello there! Alhamdulillah, akhirnya dapat jugak settle everything on time. Not really but still within the time I am supposed to. HAHA. Anyway! YEAH! I am officially done with semester seven and one more semester to go and *hopefully* I will be graduating by the end of the year! Exciting but scary at the same time. It's not the assignments that scares us, the moderators.

In addition, we got advanced news that two of the strictest lecturer would be teaching us next semester. What a head start to have. Let's just hope that everything would be just fine. Because you have to find out yourself rather than trusting all the words that have been spreading about them. I bet they won't bite, unless they are hungry.

I know I have not been writing a lot lately. Don't worry, nothing that you missed out really, there's ASSIGNMENTS, ASSIGNMENTS and MORE ASSIGNMENTS, and FINALS and how stressful I am and those sort of whining that I know you would be happy to be reading about them everyday. But there is some important stuff that I would like to share. Not today. I just need to catch up with sleeping for a bit. HEE.

So for the last semester break, I would like to use this one month wisely. So maybe this would be my TO-DO-LIST, if you wanna join, do gimme a call, or you have any plans to invite me, why wait? :P

Dance Class or Language Class (I am still confused. Or dua-dua sekali je la?)
Lose more weight since I gain so much during finals. (Alasan) HAHA!
Clean up my portfolio and resume.
Do more reading on design books/do more research!
Must go for HOLIDAY TRIP with BFFs!

Err, I think that's all in my head for now. I'll update more later.

P/S : Jangan lupa tengok MAHARAJALAWAK malam ni. GO NABIL ♥

That was fast.

2011-06-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

The image above show the excitement that I felt when I first stepped my feet in London, in Europe. That was the furthest that I went far away from home. Without my mummy. Exactly A YEAR and a few days ago. Can you see how time flies so fast nowadays? It scares me in a way but exciting at the same time. Now I am having finals for Semester Seven and hopefully I can finish up m FINAL SEMESTER by the end of the year and if everything goes well, I can graduate and start working next year. Creepy. Exciting. But still creepy. Am I ready? Yes? No? We'll just see how it goes. So, I have to go now. I just miss blogging but time is for my assignment. But no worries, I'll write you all day during semester break. So I guess you'll be seeing lots of ME in three weeks. Wish me luck! <3

P/S : The image is by my personal favourite candid photographer, VEENIE! Love it!

MonoloQue -Chinta

2011-05-26T04:29:00.000+08:00

We all have that moment where we are addicted to one song and put it on replay until we eventually get sick of it. This is the current song. Enjoy.

MonoloQue - Chinta

Kau hadir bila tiba waktunya
Tidak diundang tak jua di pinta
Walau ku lari namun kau tetap datang jua
Keranamu chinta tak mampu menahannya
Aku terus mencuba untuk lari dari chinta
Kerana perit terasa sengsara tanpa kata kerana dusta

Chinta kau luhurkan hati ini membuat segalanya indah
Walau sesekali menjengah tiba
Oh chinta terasa bahagia
Hanya menunggu saat dan tika

Aku akan terus melangkah walau tanpamu oh chinta
Aku yakin akan adanya setia ceritera yang tiada akhirnya

Chinta kau luhurkan hati ini membuat segalanya indah
Walau sesekali menjengah tiba
Oh chinta terasa bahagia
Hanya menunggu saat dan tika

Kerana chinta
Terasa bahagia

Chinta abadi chinta
Chinta padanya
Chinta satu
Chinta selamanya

P/S : This video is just awesome.

To love or not to love?

2011-05-19T02:39:00.002+08:00

I walked in for the love. And for the passion. And probably pick one or two or another few friends. But then again - things don't always go as planned. If it's not meant to be - it's just NOT MEANT TO BE.

I am angry at myself. I am not sure whether it is because I hate not being myself or I hate that I have to actually face some hypocrites and do nothing about it.

I have a choice. Few actually. Stay for the love and passion. Look for other circus show. Or stay and never be yourself because they don't deserve to know the other side of me - the side where you can see how I am comfortable and do crazy and random things like I love too.

Yes. People said that I have the face of a very snobby person on my first impression. I don't get comfortable easily.Well I can actually but once my mind says NO - it will say NO. NO to these shits and dramas. You have more to life to build up. Why waste time on something that you just don't belong to? Did I grow up a little too fast or are they just immatures?

You know - different kind of fruits make it more attractive rather than just having apples in a basket. This one kind doesn't like to hang out with just one kind because she thinks that one kind will take her nowhere. Two heads are better than one but hundreds make things easier don't you think? If you get what I mean.

Maybe I'll hang out a bit for awhile. Just a little bit.

P/S : Not loving what I love is totally disturbing.

I think I loved too much.

2011-05-03T00:18:00.025+08:00

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you? What am supposed to say when I all chocked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces," - Breakeven // The Script.

This is the best song that can describe how I feel the whole week. The week has been somehow NOT PRODUCTIVE as should expected. I couldn't care less and I feel like ending the relationship somehow. I guess this is what they said about 'loving too much'. I think I loved too much. Yes. I think I did.

But somehow I don't want this relationship to end. I have been in it for too long to just let go. I have been wanting for this to happen since forever and letting go now is like - committing suicide. This feeling is just confusing. I want you but I need my space. I need you but I want you to walk away. I love you still. I don't know.

I have until the end of year to just hold on for awhile. I talked to some regarding on this. They said probably I am just tired and need a break from DESIGNING. Maybe take an outside activity that HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH DESIGNING. Do extreme stuff. Go bungee jumpin or skydiving. Do something that can make you screeeaaaammmmmmmm. I think I need a break. A holiday. The TRUE DEFINITION of holiday and having break.

Letting go of designing is one of the thing I will regret most in life. I used to have so much passion in it and giving it away that easily? NOT A CHANCE. Few months to go until I can hold the BA and move on to things that I like. And start building up my career. That is the scariest part that I have keep on thinking. BLERGH. I am just emotionally unstable. My brain are just tired. My body, hand and legs are breaking into pieces while my soul went flying somewhere.

Ya know STEFAN SEIGMEISTER? *google it* he practices working hard and play hard meaning that he will work for seven years and closes his office for the whole one year meaning do other stuff and do it respectively over and over again. They said one of the advices given to designers around #Take a break after a long period of designing. This helps to boost up your mood, ideas and even spirit. I shall bare in mind of this advice. One day. When I have my own company. *INSYAALLAH*

P/S : Let's go for a holiday this semester break. Anyone?

USB Cable.

2011-04-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

There I was in Plaza eating with my girls, PEEPEE, MITCHIE and RIVI. I had hard time begging PEEPEE to come with me to the library to do work because i was really really in the mood while the other two had something else to do. And at last she said yes.

Things were going on normally. We took our stuff out of our bags and put the bag in the baggage room. Sounded so normal right? We went in when suddenly some of my stuff fell down while we were walking. Yeah. I need at least a new pencil box but anyway, that's not the point.

We looked for a power plug all over the library. Some of it can't be use so we kinda move from one table to another when suddenly I realize, MY USB CABLE was missing. I panicked obviously. Well - I haven't loss anything for ages and this actually pulled down my mood to print out my work. I walked the whole library in case I dropped it while I was walking. Even PEEPEE helped me looked all over the library but it is no where to be seen. It's not like that I can't buy a new one but the VALUE of the USB cable.

So I was annoyed and tweeted :

And then I got a reply from @revupwithrevive saying :

That was awkward. I was like, "Veenie, check this out. Somebody actually replied". PEEPEE was in shocked too and saying, "Are you serious?". I laughed and I said how about we ask them. And Veenie again, was asking "Atika, are you serious? How if the thing is a prank or something?". I was like, "How about we just reply. It's only twitter anyway".

Then the conversation goes like this :

I told PEEPEE and she still can't believe this thing - me neither! How can someone just reply your tweet and actually want to come to you and give you a new USB cable. I was like. ALrite then. Let's just wait until we decided to go home and suddenly we saw two guys with blue Revive Isotonic shirts standing in front of the library.

Me and PEEPEE was in total shocked. THEY ARE SERIOUS! And that was the awkwardest moment when he actually brought me a bottle of revive and a USB CABLE! Can you imagine!? That really turn around my day! Tell me, how often a stranger approach you and actually wanted to help you and they did and bought you a new USB cable and came I don't even know from where all away to Cyberjaya. How sweet of them!

Now this is what we call VALUE MANAGEMENT people. Adding up more values in your product and make people remember the product for the rest of their life and this also add up my love towards REVIVE! Thanks a lot you guys! how about you give them your support by following them on twitter @revupwithrevive or like them on FB page - http://www.facebook.com/ReviveIsotonic, who knows you might be the next one to be #revup!

P/S : I still can't believe this happened to me! THANK YOUUUU! how about we start to brighten up others day everyday too? Sounded like fun :)

Never Say Never

2011-04-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

Yes. From the title itself you know what the content of this post about. I know some will try to throw bad names to him but I'm cool with it, but I'm not sure for the rest f his million fans so better be careful or they'll attack you like zombies trying to get your brain! HAHA!

Anyway, I just watched Justin Bieber: Never Say Never! OMG! Finally somebody actually wanted to entertain me by accompanying me to watch this movie! *Okay, he was forced but he got no choice anyway! Moving on, some of you might think this is just a waste of time and money but seriously go watch it. Good documentary of a teenage life.

I have never seen girls, crying and screaming in concerts other than the late MICHAEL JACKSON but this kid, he was an exception, the beliebers? They are WILD as in they are predators looking for its prey which in this case - is JB himself. I was speechless looking at the crowd in Madison Sq Garden and only in few days he'll be in Bukit Jalil and I am gonna miss that!? I feel sad somehow and the urge of going but he's living his dream and I have mine too so priority on my final year. But whoever is going, have fun foe me! i'll be screaming my lungs out from homeeeeeeeeee! Or in Syabil's ear but anyhow I'll be screaming tooooooo!

I was trying to control myself not to scream and try to stay put in my sit throughout the movie when all I want to do is jump and screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmm! Okay. I need to calm down and breathe. Can you believer that I just came back from the movies and I straight blog about him? This BIEBER FEVER is very very infectious and contagious. Like seriously but how can you not say NO to those cute eyes and smile and laugh and and and *faint*

My first time laying eyes on him when I was in Foundation Year which was 2008 where me and my cute Myanmar twins friend keep on playing his video which he was singing cover With You by Chris Brown! Which is this one!

Isn't he's adorable? Don't you feel like pinching his cheeks and pat his head and scream to his face how cute he is?

HAHA. Enough with the fever but this is normal okay. You should see the ones which are out of this world - who even cried or even broke a leg just that they can climb on the stage to reach for him. WILD RIGHT? Tell me about it. But JB is talented in such young age. He played the drums when he was very very young and he sings and dance and play the keyboard and guitar. *dreamy* for teenagers. And me of course! Who doesn't want a musician boyfriend? Sexy aren't themmm? His favourite colour is PURPLE and he's a lefty! * I have always have this thing for lefty guys, they are sexay somehowwwwww. But anyway, you girls can have him but I can't resist his cuteness though.

But from all this fame and everything, he is struggling to become a NORMAL KID. Keep on dreaming Bieber because there will be NO NORMAL in your dictionary for a few years.

isn't it funny how we normal people wanted to be famous while those famous people, all they want to do is have normal life? life is scary. The future is scary.

P/S : My Bieber Fever is still in control. No worries people. And for those who are going to his concert, I hate you peopleeeeeeeeeeee! :P

P/S/S : Thanks to Jusbil Bieber for accompanying me. I love you more than I love Justin Bieber ♥

Holding hands - is it a crime?

2011-04-15T00:37:00.001+08:00

I was walking with my PEEPEE to the car park, happily, holding hands when suddenly we heard a voice saying something like, "why are they even walking holding hands?" - in a very snobbish way and in her language that she thinks we don't understand but sadly, we do.

I don't see anything wrong with girls holding hands. In in our nature that we are loving creature that naturally, anything we 'love' is okay. Don't get me wrong okay, meaning that we can hold hands even with girls but boys, please don't. It's creepy. Okay - let me just correct that, in some culture - guys do hold hand. Yes they do, not because they are gays and less girls in their country, it shows brotherhood - how they are bonded ( mostly are in the middle eastern ) but don't do this in western country. Just don't.

You see. It's actually good to learn other cultures so you just don't just simply JUDGE people. Education is good. When you know, you actually adapt yourself to the culture of that certain place and I bet you'll survive just fine.

I feel good that I start to really appreciate every.single.thing I learn.

P/S : Probably her hands were never been hold by her friends because hers is dirty. EW.

50 reason NOT to date a GRAPHIC DESIGNER.

2011-04-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

HAHA. I found this link as my friends we're sharing it online and it's a lie if I said it's not true. Not all - well, I can say 90% of this are true and I agree totally. And somehow it made me feel good about me being a designer because I am not the only one :)

1. They are very weird people.
2. There are billions of them in the world, like colors on the screen of your computer.
3. They will analyse conversations in layers.
4. You will spend the day assembling furniture from IKEA.
5. They drink and eat all kinds of weird shit just because they like the packaging.
6. They hate each other.
7. You’ll come out the last out of the movies because you have to see the full list of credits.
8. They cant change a light bulb or without making a sketch.
9. They fuck up all the tables with their cutters.
10. They rather study the paisley pattern on your outfit than listen to what you have to say.
11. They will fill your house with magazines and whatever is out there that has drawings.
12. You never know if it is really an original or a copy.
13. They make collages with your photos.
14. They do not know how to add and subtract, they just understand letters.
15. They idolize people who nobody knows and speak of them as if they were his colleagues.
16. They take pictures almost daily and all are cut in weird shapes.
17. They ask your opinion about everything but they do whatever they want.
18. Everything is left justified, right or center unless they arrive late.
19. They hate Comic Sans with the same passion they love Helvetica.
20. They use iPhone for everything, because everyone has one.
21. You can not decorate the house without consulting them.
22. They steal street signs.
23. Always carry their hands painted with something.
24. They buy dolls unfinished for them to paint.
25. Everything becomes something other than what it really is: cards as tickets, cards as …
26. When arguing, you will be nicknamed like the OSX spinning wheel (not affectionately)
27. Do not know how to dress without consulting the Pantone book.
28. They hate Excel.
29. They read comics.
30. They want to save the world only with a poster.
31. You will spend the day brainstorming.
32. On vacation they will take you to countries that you do not know exist and have no beach.
33. Museums are their second home.
34. They know more positions than the Kamasutra.
35. They can’t go to a restaurant without secretly critiquing the menu design.
36. They listen to music you have never heard of.
37. They can´t cook a normal dish, they always have to experiment with new ingredients.
38. They read rare books: stories of children, Semiotics …
39. When you are going to tell you something, everyone has read it in their facebook and twitter.
40. They have own iPods before you knew they existed.
41. The orgasm they remember is when they heard that Adobe was acquiring Macromedia.
42. They have their own shops just for them and there are the most expensive in the city.
43. They want to spend all the money in the Apple Store.
44. You will never understand their gifts.
45. They see ordinary objects and laugh.
46. You wake up in the middle of the night hearing them screaming “When is the deadline?”
47. They see CMYK and RGB like Neo sees the Matrix.
48. They dream of the day nobody will make a single change to their designs.
49. They rather pay for a font than for a special birthday gift.
50. They are always sleepy because they work 24/7.

*taken from http://abourbonforsilvia.wordpress.com/2010/11/10/50-reasons-not-to-date-a-graphic-designer/

p/s : please take note to whom it may concern :P

"Yours are small".

2011-04-13T20:20:00.002+08:00

What would you do when someone approached you and said, "OMG, yours are very small!". What would be your reaction? Will you actually punch her for insulting or thank her for complimenting? Oh yeah, I am talking about teeth here just to make things clear :P

Ye. As a very talkative person - well - I talk. *duh* and when I started actively talk, you aspect people to listen not observe all of your movement - and what I will get is somehow these kind of reactions, "you have small teeth do you?", and I'll be like thinking "URGH, did I open my mouth to wide or what?" or some will go, "do you know that you have small teeth?". YES. I realized it a few years back. maybe a year ago that I really realized that I have small teeth where people keep on saying the same teeth., eh thing. HAHA.

HAHA. Kenapa orang tengok gigi padahal masa tu kita suruh dia dengar bukan tengok. Kadang-kadang aku yang naik segan orang tengok gigi aku. Mana la tau en ada taik gigi ke atau cili dan sayur terlekat. Sape jugak malu? Mak jugekk!

Dengan itu saya nak berkongsi maksud-maksud disebalik gigi, jadi pergi depan cermin dan pilih, which one is your teeth. AMARAN : Ini hanya untuk suka-suka okay.

JARANG DAN KECIL
Mereka yang memiliki bentuk gigi sebegini dikatakan suka menilai diri orang lain. Pasti ada saja yang kena pada pandangan mata mereka. Tapi yang tak syoknya, dia sibuk menilai orang lain tapi tak suka orang lain menilai atau mengkritik dirinya! Tak patut! Selain itu, dia juga sukar mengalah! Tapi kadangkala mengalah itu perlu. Apatah lagi kalau memang kamu yang bersalah. Beralah sajalah!

BERSAIZ SEDERHANA DAN RATA
Cantiknya gigi dia . Teratur sekali dipandang, macam gigi palsu pula. Tapi gigi asli tau!!

Orang yang memiliki bentuk gigi sebegini adalah seorang yang baik hati dan suka menolong. Bak kata orang, ringan tulanglah. Kalau ada yang minta bantuan, pasti tak dikecewakan. Sebenarnya mereka ini ingin sentiasa membahagiakan orang lain. Boleh juga mereka tumpang gembira. Untungnya dapat kawan/ kekasih macam mereka ni kan?

BESAR DAN JARANG
Aduh! Rupanya orang yang bergigi besar dan agak jarang jaraknya antara satu sama lain ini bersifat iri hati dengan kejayaan orang lain. Tak elok macam tu. Itu kan dah rezeki mereka. Buat apa nak dengki. Menyakitkan hati kamu saja. Lebih baik kamu belajar untuk terima kenyataan dan jangan asyik nak berdengki.

Selain itu, sifat negatif kamu juga, seorang yang keras kepala. Mulalah tarik muncung 44 inci kalau tak diikuti kemahuan. Tapi awas, mereka ini sanggup melakukan apa saja demi memastikan apa yang dikehendaki itu diperolehi. Bahayanya! Sebagai kekasih/teman mereka, kamu harus berbanyaklah bersabar dengan sikap mereka itu apatah lagi dengan sikap manja yang dibuat buat tu. Erk! Gelemannya!

JONGANG DAN KECIL
Jangan ingat semua orang yang gigi 'ke depan' tu tak cantik . Ada juga yang masih kelihatan manis dan cantik. Sekiranya giginya berbentuk agak jongang dan kecil, bermakna dia masih lagi bertolak ansur dengan orang lain. Maknanya keras kepalanya itu bertempat dan masih boleh dibawa berunding. Kata orang tu, dalam keras ada lembutnya!

JONGANG DAN BESAR
Benteng pertahanan kena kuat dan kukuh. Banyaklah bersabar kalau ada teman/kekasih seperti mereka ini. Menduga iman sungguh! Kamu haruslah kena banyak bersabar dan tahan saja dengan mulut celupar mereka tu. Mereka juga mudah mengeluh dan tak pernah puas hati dengan apa yang telah dimiliki. Sikap itu ada positifnya kerana mereka mudah menempa kejayaan dan akan sentiasa berusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik. Selain itu, mereka ini agresif orangnya dan ringan tulang!

TIDAK TERSUSUN
Kadangkala tengok orangnya memang cantik. Tapi bila dia tersenyum menampakkan giginya yang tak begitu rata dan sekata, mengurangkan kecantikan yang dimilikinya itu. Namun kata orang, biarpun giginya tak cantik tapi hati budinya 'cantik'.

Usah kerana tengok gigi tak cantik maka ingat perangai pun tak berapa cantik juga. Mereka ini merupakan teman bicara yang amat memahami. Tidak rugi menjadikan mereka ini sebagai tempat meluahkan hati kerana mereka sentiasa mendengar dan memberi nasihat. Mereka juga berpengetahuan luas biarpun sikapnya kebudak-budakan kadangkala merimaskan. Selain itu, mereka juga pandai membahagiakan orang lain.

SEOLAH MASUK KE DALAM
Bila diperhatikan, struktur giginya seolah 'ke dalam' sikit. Ia menandakan bahawa mereka seorang yang pemalu dan suka menyembunyikan sikap sebenar diri mereka tapi mereka agak pasif. Selalunya mereka ini bersikap pendiam dan tidak begitu pandai bergaul dengan orang lain. Selain itu, mereka juga cukup pandai menyimpan rahsia kecuali kepada orang yang benar-benar telah meraih kepercayaan mereka.

KECIL DAN TERSUSUN
Selalunya berwajah keanakan dan tampak semakin menarik dengan gigi yang kecil dan tersusun indah itu. Mereka yang memiliki gigi sebegini dikatakan suka menolong orang dan boleh dipercayai percakapan mereka. Aduhai! Beruntungnya mereka yang memiliki kekasih seperti ini kerana mereka seorang kekasih yang hebat!

*informasi telah dipinjam // pinjam boleh? dari --http://blogz-anda.blogspot.com/2010/06/jarang-dan-kecil-mereka-yang-memiliki.html*

my cookie, my shiny teeth and me! HAHA!

P/S : Pnut, aku tak kutuk gigi kau tuit :P HAHA! I love you COOKIE!

RANDOM THOUGHTS #5

2011-04-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

I know I pick on every single day and all I do is whine how you screw up things even though I was just exaggerating it and also I hit you and bite you whenever things don't go my way and and and whenever I scream my lungs off just because you don't listen and ignore you just because I feel like it but anyhow this post is just mainly to say THANK YOU for being mine and be the 'harmonizer' of this relationship where else I rebel all the time.

I just feel like saying THANK YOU to you just because.

And I rarely tell you how much I actually appreciate you being there for me all the time. And while I have the chance to thank you I think the best thing to do is really thank you. So, THANK YOU. If things don't go our way, well - it's just not meant to be :)

P/S : I love you. Sometimes *HAHA!

How old are you again?

2011-04-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

The thing that really got on my nerve is immature people. It's true though. When you want to be treated like adults, act like one because my maturity levels depend on how you treated me. I though being in a university is where you actually bring your own self, trying to stand on your own feet, speaking your own voice, observing with your own eyes, listening and actually implement the stuff into your brain and think using your own mind. Is it that hard?

Some of us still need spoon-feeding - on every single thing. That is so annoying! The least we did for you was actually plan, the only thing you have to do is follow. Is it that hard? Seriously? Can someone please explain to me because all I want to do is just punch them in the face so that they have to go back to primary school. I am sorry, if you need somebody to spoon-feed you, it's gonna be a bit disappointing because everyone's hand is full with their task. Use your own. God created them for a reason.

We are all trying to survive in this situation I know but then again, be a team player at least.

p/s : please go and check your year of birth and count and think of the next step.

How are you being spoiled?

2011-04-10T02:31:00.003+08:00

When I said 'spoiled' is not the term as in being a spoiled brat. It is more of being spoiled in certain ways. I bet everyone of us is spoiled in a way somehow. For example, you cannot sleep without a blanket. Maybe. Just maybe. That is how you being spoiled.

A friend once asked me, "Are you spoiled?". Well, not exactly, I have to actually earn something rather than just asking for it. It's true though. "I know right. Me too, I don't think I am being spoiled in any way but then again, we have to spoil ourselves in a way". I couldn't agree more. But I am not sure how am I being spoiled then again, I remembered. I am indecisive about food and can have hard time deciding on what to eat maybe because my mom will order for me and all I do is sit down and eat.

When I was in London last year, I have difficulties on deciding what to eat and that made me miss my mom so much. "Kan senang mummy ada, she can just order for me". Yes, kalau kedai dah familiar and my favourite place to eat, memang la senang pop in mind, but for the unfamiliar places, I think I need my mom.

That's the only think I could think of for now of what am I being spoiled from. I will update more when I can actually think of other things and looking forward to be spoiled that one person that will just agree on whatever I say and do *wink*

p/s : how are you being spoiled? :)

Anti-social.

2011-04-10T01:20:00.000+08:00

It is scientifically proven but the only person that scientifically related as in have whatever I have - which is my MOM - that I will turn anti-social every time I am really concentrating into one thing which in this case - ASSIGNMENTS. I still remember her saying, "Ika kan anti-social kalau banyak kerja".

I think that is true. I'd be into my own world finishing up my own thing without even caring whatever is happening around me. I'll be very serious and depressed whenever I am doing my work. Well I will look depressed only on the outside because I prefer to concentrate on just my mental than physical. When doing work, mentally I have to be strong that's why if I am really into it, I can work day and night just to get the best out of it.

And the impact or effect from this 'anti-social'azing, I paused myself from blogging, I even stop caring about my handphone or even about my facebook, accept for twitter where I actually make a short update on whatever I am doing. I also stopped going out as in hanging out and lepak and weekends seems like - well - there is actually no weekends for me because what is weekend actually when you are stuck all day doing nothing but work, true?

But then again, I think this is what is actually best for the future - I mean this is my final year and I want to get the very best out from myself so some sacrifices should be made and this made me appreciate my time more and made me look forward to the REAL WEEKEND that I should be spending with my favourite boy and girl :)

P/S : I named the 'anti-social' me, her name is AKITA RON. So whenever she took over, please don't get me wrong or say that I am not being myself - it means that I just have work to get done and I don't want to be disturb :)

Not another one.

2011-03-25T02:55:00.000+08:00

One question : WHY and HOW.

I have nothing to say anymore. I'm done. I'm going back to traditional songs. Atleast they won't let me down.

Please, just DON'T.

2011-03-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

It really disturbs me when I can't say this to you. It's not I can't talk but I can't afford losing another one. I am trying my best to act like I don't know anything but I can't. I really CAN'T.

What you did wasn't really a bad decision - if you feel it then you feel it. Nothing can change that but I was hoping that you played fair. I did everything I could to save you but this time I feel like I was just wasting my time. I was wrong all along.

I really don't know what to do. I wish I could just pull you to the nearest mirror and how about you take a look for yourself. This time I am just not strong enough. I am sorry.

I hope nothing will change between us. I love you.

I would like to have one FRIED EGG, please.

2011-03-19T17:01:00.004+08:00

I am sorry but I have too blog about this.

Have you guys ever heard of REBECCA BLACK? You haven't!? Why you must be living in a cave because she is the new HIT SENSATION! Climbing up herself in itunes stores worldwide and actually getting famous overnight. Well, she actually got famous for the wrong reasons. Before we start anything. You must first know who are we really talking about.

I hope you guys didn't hurt yourselves by watching this video as I did. Now let's look at the lyrics :

(Yeah, Ah-Ah-Ah-Ah-Ah-Ark)
Oo-ooh-ooh, hoo yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah-ah-ah
Yeah-ah-ah
Yeah-ah-ah
Yeah-ah-ah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

[Rebecca Black - Verse 1]

7am, waking up in the morning
Gotta be fresh, gotta go downstairs
Gotta have my bowl, gotta have cereal
Seein’ everything, the time is goin’
Tickin’ on and on, everybody’s rushin’
Gotta get down to the bus stop
Gotta catch my bus, I see my friends (My friends)

Kickin’ in the front seat
Sittin’ in the back seat
Gotta make my mind up
Which seat can I take?

It’s Friday, Friday
Gotta get down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend
Friday, Friday
Gettin’ down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend

Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Fun, fun, fun, fun
Lookin’ forward to the weekend

[Rebecca Black - Verse 2]

7:45, we’re drivin’ on the highway
Cruisin’ so fast, I want time to fly
Fun, fun, think about fun
You know what it is
I got this, you got this
My friend is by my right
I got this, you got this
Now you know it

Kickin’ in the front seat
Sittin’ in the back seat
Gotta make my mind up
Which seat can I take?

[Chorus]

It’s Friday, Friday
Gotta get down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend
Friday, Friday

Gettin’ down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend

Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Fun, fun, fun, fun
Lookin’ forward to the weekend

[Bridge]

Yesterday was Thursday, Thursday
Today i-is Friday, Friday (Partyin’)
We-we-we so excited
We so excited
We gonna have a ball today

Tomorrow is Saturday
And Sunday comes after...wards
I don’t want this weekend to end

[Rap Verse]

R-B, Rebecca Black
So chillin’ in the front seat (In the front seat)
In the back seat (In the back seat)
I’m drivin’, cruisin’ (Yeah, yeah)
Fast lanes, switchin’ lanes
Wit’ a car up on my side (Woo!)
(C’mon) Passin’ by is a school bus in front of me
Makes tick tock, tick tock, wanna scream
Check my time, it’s Friday, it’s a weekend
We gonna have fun, c’mon, c’mon, y’all

[Chorus]

It’s Friday, Friday
Gotta get down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend
Friday, Friday
Gettin’ down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend

Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Fun, fun, fun, fun
Lookin’ forward to the weekend

It’s Friday, Friday
Gotta get down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend
Friday, Friday
Gettin’ down on Friday
Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend

Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah)
Fun, fun, fun, fun
Lookin’ forward to the weekend

I don't even know where to start. Let's we just take a deep breathe and think all of the positiveness we can in this video and the lyrics itself.

*cricket*

*cricket*

Ooooo-kaayyyy. Let's move on to the next video when she was interviewed as if she's a celebrity.

She may not be the best singer but she is not the worst singer as she put it that way. And you can see her face lying about she not giving a *TUTTTT* about the comments. But then again when she sung a line or two of their national anthem, it doesn't sound as bad as she sounded in Friday. Right? But then look at this video :

Why does she allows her voice sounding like that. She sounded like she had a serious sinus case. Or maybe something was being stucked in her nose while she is singing. This is sad. Like really sad that made the whole world wanted to cry and praying that one day MJ while eventually return. And you adults! BEHAVE.

I really don't know what to say. She is very very young and why she is rushing for fame? I mean. Should we blame her for wanting so much at such a young age or her mom for letting her get what her wants without warning of the consequences that will eventually happen. OR maybe we should blame Music Ark Factory for not understanding what music really is?

I am just not sure and still in confuse. I don't hate Rebecca Black for - well - being her but then again - I hate her for not aware of what is MUSIC all about. You take bad in much more higher level Rebecca. I am sorry but it's true. You are famous but for the wrong reason. That's just not cool.

And yeah - Bieber, as a Bieliber, all I can say to you and beg you to do is RUN.

Nutella Mug Cake

2011-03-19T03:04:00.000+08:00

OMG! Look what I have found in TUMBLR which come from this link! This is a MUST TRY RECIPE! Note to SYAFINAZ IBY!

Nutella Mug Cake

Ingredients

4 tablespoons self rising flour
4 tablespoons sugar
1 egg
3 tablespoons cocoa powder
3 tablespoons Nutella
3 tablespoons milk
3 tablespoons olive or vegetable oil

Method

Combine all ingredients in a large coffee mug.
Whisk well with a fork until smooth.
Microwave on high for 1 1/2 – 3 minutes. (Time depends on microwave wattage. Mine took 1 /2 minutes.)
Top with whipped cream and a little chocolate sauce if desired.

If anybody did ever tried this, please share your thoughts. Or maybe share with me some of your cake :P

I think I accidentally broke my brain.

2011-03-18T17:30:00.001+08:00

Yes. I think I did. Wanna know why? Because I mixed everything together in one brain. Duh. Obviously everyone can think with only one brain. Can we separate into parts where when you are doing work, there will be no distraction inside your brain where it will eventually bothers you for the whole day and kill your study mode and made you a very moody and depressing person. Life is sad. My life is sad. I am sad.

I feel awful. I feel like droning myself inside a pool but it doesn't make sense since I can swim. Or maybe I can bang my head on the wall but still I feel numb and I don't feel anything. You know how empty I feel? It's like having nasi lemak without sambal. HA! That empty!

I am depressed. No. I am not. I am just tired. My brain is. There's just too -- much -- work -- to -- do -- I -- think -- I -- am -- going -- bzztt - bzztt - tuuuuuuuuuuuttttttttt -- *DEAD*

Monophone 2011

2011-03-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

Sorry and I know this event had passed a week ago but I can't still get over it. I have been busy for quite awhile now. You know lecturers. When you said, "Oh I miss doing assignment do much!", they will actually misinterpret you. Seriously. I said ASSIGNMENT with NO S. Meaning just one is enough. So you get my point. I have NO LIFE other than doing projects. Oh well.

Anyway, did you guys miss this year's MONOPHONE 2011? If you did then you made the biggest mistake EVER! They had the best performances! They had WANTED SYMPHONY, BEAT OF SOUL, TILU, COUPLE, THE TREES AND THE WILD and NAIF! I felt like I was in love for the first time when seeing TTATW performed that night! If I ever got the chance to ever - EVER see them perform again, I WOULD! Here's a clip that I found in YouTube from their performance that night :

AWESOME right? Everyone that loves them agrees that they love them LIVE rather than the radio and it's good. TRUST ME. They gave me goosebumps last night!

TILU and BEAT of SOUL was great! They played somehow like jazz and how can you not like a band with a sexy saxophonist!? You tell me!

COUPLE were brilliant too! It was the first time for me seeing them playing or even look at them. GAY. I know but at least I know them! Only that I didn't know that the girl played the guitar and the drummer was the drummer. But anyhow, no wonder the got to go to UK. Malaysian rocks to ya know! ;)

A little disappointment that night that actually made me upset. And really REALLY disappointed as they are a slightly a bit of one-sidedness but it's okay. Because we're COOL LIKE THAT.

Monophone 2012 anyone? :)

It's just not fair.

2011-03-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

The more I learn, the happier I get. But sometimes things that you learn are disappointing. Not the lectures given but the things that I learned - meaning that the facts that I wasn't aware of before is very very upsetting. Why? Because we worked hard to get where we are right now and some just take it easy and they actually made us look like trash.

Seriously, I thought I was wrong but I was right all along. I remembered the time when I asked to be transferred to art class rather than science but they insist me on doing science where my love is actually towards art. They actually underestimated art. They actually put art and designing as the lowest course of all and for that is why they don't consider the importance of ART & DESIGN in professionalisme.

Open your eyes and look for yourself how 'designers' have actually played an important role in life especially with the media developing and so is advertising. This is ridiculous.

Things just have to change. Like seriously.

RANDOM THOUGHTS #4

2011-03-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

I wonder when people smoke weed or sewaktu dengannya - what do they see? A clearer vision on a person in high probably are similarly like this - I think.

HAHA. I wish I could be in their shoes and really feel how PSYCHEDELICS were seen on those days. I could do all sorts of things I wanted to do but my sanity doesn't allow me too. Oh well. Life goes on! :)

Is being sexy required?

2011-03-11T15:24:00.028+08:00

You know, PROBABLY if I graduated by the end of this *hopefully with flying colours* I would be working by next year. Thinking of working always terrify me.

From what I observed, most fresh-graduates are telling me that there are having hard times looking for a job that suits them. Do you even have a choice when you are at the beginning? Everything starts from below. Unless you're lucky enough and talented then you might have the steeping stones that you can jump onto.

What are actually the requirements of getting a job? For me, SKILLS are one of the important aspects that company are looking at nowadays. If you can do work and committed to it and passionate, that is all that matters right? But is being BEAUTIFUL and SEXY a requirement? This is a serious question. Who are you to judge people and say that they are UGLY? Everyone is unique in their own way. Not judging by the eyes.

A person told me that she was called for an interview one day. She went and I know she is very good in oraganizing and doing what this company has been searching for. But then when she arrived and gave the resume to the receptionist - he immediately said to her WITHOUT LOOKING AT HER RESUME - "Oh sorry, we're looking for a secretary who is GOOD LOOKING and SEXY". She replied, "Excuse me? I thought you are looking for a secretary?", he then replied, "Yeah but the boss needs her to be SEXY". "Are you guys looking for a secretary of a wife?" she replied and walked off.

Seriously. Is being SEXY a requirement to get a job? Fuck then. I want a CAREER instead.

Can you pronounce all the alphabets correctly?

2011-03-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

I don't know why but I am easily fascinated with people who had difficulties in pronouncing certain alphabets. The most common letters that are R, S, T. D or X. Those are the ones that I can remember.

No, don't get me wrong. I am not being mean but I have this feeling towards them talking. They amaze in a way and I think they are sexy. HAHA. Well - DEPENDS. Kalau menulis dalam pelat is SO NOT SEXY and trying to baby-talk makes you wanna slap them on the face with a baby as a senior of mine might put it.

Seriously. That's why I like PIERRE ANDRE so much. Coz of his sexy way of saying S. *jatuh cinta*

Well. I might not blog that much because I am drowning myself away in the ASSIGNMENT POOL. So don;t miss me too much :P

Should I or Shouldn't I?

2011-03-06T22:39:00.001+08:00

When you start getting onto your own feet which is actually YOUR OWN - you won't really get EVERYTHING you want at the same time. Sometimes you have to give up on what you have always wanted for something even better.

In my case. I want a MACBOOK. Yes. I used to not caring about having one of them but since being in this 'industry', a MACBOOK would really help me a lot. I regret of saying NO when my brother asked me once if I wanted one. I automatically said NO because I wasn't aware of how much it will help me move faster than PC users.

But being all 'grown-up', I actually have to earn something than just asking for them.

I feel like letting go of my love DINIE - my D90 and my speed-light and probably my battery grip so that I can go and pluck one of those apples. But then again - asking them from my mum is not easy. I have to promise her that I will do well in my studies and all and I did *ALHAMDULILLAH* and hopefully I will graduate will flying colours too.

Anyway - I am confused. Should I or shouldn't I? But I feel like I will need DINIE on day. or should I give up on my PSP? Daripada biarkan berhabuk dalam bilik baik jual kann? BLERGH.

Siapa baik hati nak pinjamkan duit beli Macbook for me or better - BUY ONE FOR ME *puppyeyes* :)

Whatever the decision has to be approved by MUMMY first! But suggestions are highly appreciated.

Niew pendawpart sayew jewwww :)

2011-03-06T03:50:00.001+08:00

As we all - as in Malaysians - and non-Malaysians viewers *wink* are aware that everyone is kinda having 'IniAnwarHadi' fever as we all love his vlog. To those who aren't aware of he is check him out on youtube yo.

As we all know he is famously known for his 'ewwww vlog' where he actually talks about how is annoyed of people exaggerating malay words by putting -ew at the back of any words that actually contains -a at the back and also changing short forms from simple short forms to 'cute' short forms. *muntah*

HAHA. So today I would love to brought the same topic and probably can enlighten him of kenaperw adewr jewr orunk yunk typ cmniew atau cmNiew pOWn atAU sWaktOo dgnYEWr :)

Well - first of all I would be lying if I said that I wasn't that person once. HAHA. Percaya atau tidak? PERCAYALAH. I was a kid okay. I was just having fun.

In my own opinion and experience - orang yang menaip mcm ni mungkin lah kan salah satunya untuk menghasilkan 'signature typing'. Maksud yang lebih mendalam adalah cara dia taip macam tu bleh membezakan sama ada dia yang menaip atau orang lain yang menaip berpura-pura menjadi dia atau lebih dikenali sebagai 'hackers' atau penyamaran. Ye, percaya atau tidak. Kerana dulu-dulu *masa bongok-bongok lagi okay* saya pun macam tu jugak. I mean I don't exaggerate ALL the words only some words but that simple little things orang tak ambik kisah tu la sebenarnya kita patut kisah. All the punctuation marks, how much the amount we put the fullstop or exclamation marks ke kan. HAA. Kenapa kena ada 'signature typing' ni? Sebab kalau orang cari gaduh cakap kita msg bukan-bukan ke dan kita macam lost taktau apa-apa, kita boleh tengok balik msg tu dan actually trace betul ke tak tu cara kita msg. HAA! power en?

Tapi tu dulu la en. Then one day I realized, I am growing up and I won't be texting with my friends ONLY - I might be texting an adult, probably a teacher, a client or whatsoever - this is so not professional. Plus, why should I ruin my own MOTHER-TONGUE LANGUAGE. Orang luar semua menghargai bahasa diorang dan menghormati bahasa diorg, we should start doing the same. That's the least I can do.

Kesimpulannya, bagi mereka yang menaip macam ni mungkin la belum mendapat kesedaran lagi. Ala - kita pun macam tak pernah kecik dedulu enn? ennn? tapi kalau sampai besar tak tau la nak cakap apa.

Other than this habit, I bet there are people out there having the same habit as me which is adding extraa letters with no reasonnnnnnnn. HAHA. But it's true. Sometimes I wonder why do I add on extra letters sometimes. Probably I don't want to be called too 'SKEMA'. Ye la kan. Talking to you friends formally macam pelik je so when you put them extra letters in. You'll look less nerdy. That's my theory.

This is just an opinion. Tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau mati.

One of the risks.

2011-03-04T21:40:00.000+08:00

You're broke. A company call you up and said that he got a two years contact, 5 million project for you. You got up and excited. This will totally change your life. You guys meet up somewhere to have a further discussion about the campaign.

Things were going on well when suddenly he told you that you actually have to work on 'SMOKING CAMPAIGN' and make sure people smoke. What would you do? Say yes or stand up and walk away? This is just an example. Stupid example. Simple but when you think of it - it can happen to you actually.

Being a designer is not as easy as it sounded. Especially in this competitive industry. When you are still studying, you can actually pick the assignments, the style, the concept and you can even argue with your lecturer why you wanna stand up for your design. But when it comes to industry - you are committed to the client - in other words - YOU HAVE NO CHOICE.

You do have a choice actually but what I see is nowadays, when you are being trusted to a project - REJECTION is not an option.

So being a designer is not as easy as it sounded. Especially when you are working on something you aren't familiar about or even shouldn't be playing around with. But you have to. It's your duty.

I am not broken - just broke.

2011-03-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

I am freaked out just by receiving the assignment briefs. JUST THE BRIEFS and we have a lot to do. Like seriously we have to stop playing this year because starting from this semester - it's serious stuff.

We are officially under LELC students. Now I understand why we have Limkokwing Executive Leadership College at campus. Since Limkokwing is upgraded into 'University', they can't have 3+0 courses which is twinning with other university. The course me and my mates are taking which is with CURTIN UNIVERSITY of Perth. So they have LELC to cover that up. But we are still under LUCT. If and only if you care. Just sayin'.

Moving on - I am not broken. I am just broke. YES. This is gonna be a hell of a year. Just thinking of doing MOCK UPS, PRINTING and BUYING STUFF for assignments is killing me. We have been notified that we will be poor by the end of the semester but if you want good grades you gotta have good qualities of work too aite? FAIR ENUFF FOR ME. I supposed.

Now I have received first few assignments, I really need to FOCUS. I don't want to play around this semester. Since we are being graded TWICE. First by LUCT and then by CURTIN. The lecturers knows us well but not the Curtin people so we really need to impress them.

So SHOPPING and HOLIDAY-ing and SHOPPING and HAVING FUN and BUYING UNNECESSARY STUFF and DATES and HANGING OUT have to stop for a while. Sad but true. Sounded like I have NO LIFE but this is my LIFE. I have to get use to it. No silly, I am not broke YET but will be. I am just getting ready.

Nak mintak tolong boleh? Tolong jangan kawan saya kalau saya ada banyak kerja. And please please force me to do work! And I should make LIBRARY as my second home. I wish. We'll see.

And yeah - JOBSTREET is very useful. Like seriously.

Homesick.

2011-03-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

Homesick is not a home that is sick. PFFT. Homesick is where you go home and fall sick. HAHA. No. Homesick is where you got sick while thinking of home. Home? You mean You got sick by missing your house? *CAPLESH!* No. Home and house are two different things. House is a place where you eat, sleep, breathe, bath, poopoo, peepee and eat. Home on the on the other hand is the place which is full of love, you always feel proctect everytime you're in it, always makes you happy just to sit inside it and do nothing but still be happy.

I once said that HOMESICK is the best sick ever. Well - when you forgot how it feels then you can say it out loud. But when you're feeling it - like now - the only place you wanna go is HOME. Pelik kan? Bila ada dekat rumah all you wanna do is leave the house. But when you're out by yourself? THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME.

I miss my bed. The most comfy bed ever. I miss my room. Everytime you step in it and see my bed, all you wanna do is get under the blanket and go to sleep. Seriously. *serious face* I miss leaving the TV on and watch cartoons till I fall asleiep. Now all I do is stare at the ceiling till I fall asleep. I miss meeting my loved ones as I pleased. Kalau bosan I will go to PNUT and be bored with her. And I can meet BAMBIL anytime I like. Even just for a moment. Now? I need to wait till the weekends. BOOHOO. I miss my TOYOLS. Where I'll wake up every morning seeing my room in a mess with the two TOYOLS playing with my stuff. Now my room is clean. No one is here to mess things up. I miss my MUMMY. I miss lots of stuff.

BLERGH.

I can't wait to go home.

Look at my excited face skype-ing with BAMBIL. Lookie! Baju sama! Budget jodoh. Padahal siapa nak kahwin dengan dia. HEH HEH.

It's a good start I supposed.

2011-03-01T15:12:00.000+08:00

Semester seven. And another semester to go, FINAL YEAR. well - hopefully and I'll be done by this year.

The class wasn't that bad as they all said. Well for now I guess. Everyone has different opinion I supposed and this is about carrying yourself and not caring about what other people should say.

First impression is very important - true but not all people are comfortable of showing her own self to a stranger right? Some might be open and some might be defensive and some might fall down and break a chair when you first meet them and time will tell actually. So don't worry too much, Ecar. It'll be fine.

Lookie who is in LUCT with me! HEHE and ELAINE tooo! :)

Let's float.

2011-03-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

Have I told you that I have this personal feeling towards Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie? If I did the good. If I didn't - I am telling you now. I do. And I was bored and I found this on Youtube yesterday. The backward version of the song. Quite funny though with the backwards lyrics and stuff but still it's a catchy song. To you people who love to get high, please get high and listen to this song and tell me what do you feel :)

Still loving the original song though and forever will.

Camden Town Kebab

2011-03-01T00:14:00.001+08:00

I had dinner just now. I shared with PEEPEE. And we ate Lamb Kebab.

Suddenly it came to mind - I remember us eating the most tastiest kebab in London. If you ever go to London. Please take the tube and go down in CAMDEN TOWN. Go out and turn to your left, the first kebab restaurant you see is the one that I am talking about. The had the tastiest kebab and we never get bored of eating them everytime since we discover the restaurant.

The counter is the lower floor while the seating place is upstairs. The place is coy and you can look at people while eating. I can't recall the restaurant's name neither can VEEN.

One day Imma go to that place and eat. If I had the chance to. And say "AWWWW, me and PEEPEE used to love it hereeee", and of course if the restaurant is still there. Who knew.

RANDOM THOUGHTS #3

2011-02-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder. If you miss somebody, are they feeling the same way as you do? Why do you miss them anyway? If you miss someone, do you tell or you keep it to yourself?

If you tell then what happened? What if you don't - does it hurt?

Period makes you EMO. Why do we have to go through this phase every month. Oh yeah - to make sure that we are 'SUBUR'. Whatever they call them in English.

HAIH. I miss them. I wonder if they miss me too.

The Walking Dead

2011-02-28T19:46:00.001+08:00

My addiction for Zombie movies are endless. As I once said in my previous post. They fascinates me in a way and I kinda find them sexy. Call me crazy but it's true.

I have been watching The Walking Dead over and over and I just can't get enough of them. What I've heard is they only have six episodes for the first season. Why h why it has to end up so quickly! And what I heard more is the second season they'll be having thirteen episodes and might be on air by October 2011. Correct if I'm rock but I am excited for season two.

Just a quick review about this movie - it's about zombies *DUH* but this time they call them WALKERS. A more sexier and different name than ZOMBIES. I don't know what virus attack them this time since the story doesn't really end. The main character of this tv series is Rick Grimes who woke up one day and all he saw was dead bodies everywhere. He was lost and found his family when he bumped into another group of survivors in the city. He has a sexy wife and a son - Lori and Carl *the next baby will be named Bus* HAHA. Anyway, he has a best friend called Shane who is turning into a bitch and the end because he is in love with his own best friend's wife. Sick. And they survive the attack of the walkers with some of other survivors including a cute Korean named Glenn, cute and genius. Well. Watch the series if you wanna know more. I don't wanna be a spoiler here.

Oh yeah. I used to think that Zombies walk straight and can only stand. This time different. They can even crawl, and chase you and pick a stone and break a glass. Seriously. They are more of intelligent Zombies - correction - Walkers. Oh man. All of the actors and actresses are hot.

One thing that I was amused with this series is watching Daryl Dixon which is played by Norman Reedus. I feel like watching my own lecturer acting. Me and Veen was laughing watching. I guessed Mr D changed his career from a lecturer to an actor. See for yourself.

This is Norman Reedus.

This is Mr D.

I know you won't agree with me 100% but if you know Mr D and watch this series you'll get me.

Can't wait for season twoooooooo! I want moreeeeeeeee!

RANDOM THOUGHTS #2

2011-02-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

I am not being a sexist here but my curiosity is killing me. How does a man think when it comes to GIRLS/WOMEN? What is their first thought when looking at them? Don't try to play with safe answer here. I really need to know. Seriously. I know the 'one and nine' thing. I know I can google and read in books but this time I am going with PRIMARY RESEARCH. So no playing dumb. I need an answer in GENERAL.

Nothing personal really. I am just curious as I said.

Hospital Bahagia :)

2011-02-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

As for who know and who haven't - I am now officially staying in CYBERJAYA! HAHA. just for my FINAL YEAR of course. I got sick of driving and spending money on tolls and petrols so I decided to save some of the money and stay here instead.

I left the comfort of my sweet throne and getting comfortable to this new place. I am gonna miss watching TV all night long. I am gonna miss waking up late and rushing for class. I am gonna miss speeding up the highway. I am gonna miss seeing my favourite people everyday as I pleased. If I am gonna list down all. It might take a day so yeah. Basically I am gonna miss lots of thing and as I said - if you wanna move on - sometimes you have to leave the comfort that you had for so long.

When you start to be independent, you don't start off with fancy living. You start with the basics. You start to manage your life - putting priorities first - needs before wants. Nafsu. Anda kena tunggu ye. Anda tidak boleh memaksa maksa saya. Jika tidak, saya akan jadi gila.

I am now officially living with PEE PEE, KIKI, and HYJI. These people are awesome. Eventhough this house has nothing much in it but it is filled with love - RETARDED LOVE to be exact.

I am on my feet. My own feet. trying to prepare for life ahead and all I can say is I JUST CAN'T WAIT :)

P/S : Roomieeee, do you miss me? I miss youuuu!

We are all getting older.

2011-02-27T17:30:00.003+08:00

Things will eventually change when you are turning and when you are over 21. Yes. The big TWO-ONE. I will be in approximately 6 months from now. One thing that I am sure. I don't think I am ready.

Ready or not - I still have to face it. Things will change - including the things that I were hoping that will never ever will.

There are lots of things that kept on playing inside my head. Things that I don't think I am ready to let go. Growing up is about letting go. Letting go of the comfort that you had for 20 years. Stop relying on someone and start being independent. You have to get on your feet and just move forward. Go through what ever that GOD has decided for you and always remember to be strong. Not for anybody else but for yourself.

When you are being asked to grow - you have to let go. Not as in letting go and never look back - the type where you don't cling on something for too long just because you are comfortable in that situation. The type that you have to try new things - who knows you'll find a much better life than before. The past was good but look for something better.

This blog. It has been with me since - er - 2008? Yes. I started blogging because I was afraid to let go of the comfort of being a kid. A high school teenager. But there's too much memory inside this blog. I feel like making a new one but I feel I am not being fair to myself. The least I can do is look back and learn from it. Not delete it permanently.

I will eventually change this blog. Physically. Somehow. I dunno but I won't leave it. Because it is the only 'person' that I talk to whenever I have things on my chest and have to let them out. And will never say I'm wrong and will never judge me. I love you bloggy. Thanks for the alphabets and numbers and symbols :)

P/S : I can't stop form growing up. That is one thing I know for sure.

My baby you.

2011-02-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

"My baby, youuuuuuuu are the reason I could flyyy
*or drive to many places*
and because of youuuu I don't have to wonder whyyy
*why we have to himpit2 inside public transportation*"

Okay, one verse is enough I supposed. I feel bad for my baby actually. First he lost his 'coolant reserve tank' which until now I don't how did it happen. Like seriously, have you ever lost your coolant reserve tank? *this is a question to all drivers out there*. If you have the answer to this problem, please. I beg you, explain.

Then this morning when AYAH woke me up asking for my car keys. I was like, "What for?" with a sleepy face and tone then he said "GIGIRL trap dalam kereta and pooped on your back seat". WTF!? First question, HOW DID IT EVEN GET IN!? so called 'kucing PRINCESS' by ESYA sneaked into my car but went? nasib baik kau kucing. kalau tak memang dah kena penampar dengan aku.

URGH. now my baby is at the car wash. bagus jugak cuci everything. my baby need a shower anyway. tapi kali ini boleh dikategorikan mandi wajib. HAHA. then baby will be sent to the workshop to do some wiring and stuff.

So today me and my baby have to be apart - for the good. I miss you already! be back home soon okay! I'll be waitingggg! ='}

Opps, our bad!

2011-02-08T16:16:00.001+08:00

We apologize for any misunderstanding that we caused - did we? HAHA. It's our 8th day that we officially exposed ourselves to everyone of business and we found out that there is another 'SUGAR RUSH' out there. SPOILER ALERT! seriously we have no idea and we would like to apologize for using the same name!

*sigh* but it's okay! the business is STILL ON but we need to close down the blog to fix things up and we will surely update you of our new name. it is better to know now about this rather than six or ten months later. kan? but it's all COOL PEOPLE! not to worry. first choice is not always the best!

So for now you can look for 'used to called SR but need to look for a new name' here which is ME or PNUT at her blog or ou FBs for any inquiries.

So we need to say GOODBYE to Sugar Rush *byetearyeyes* and now what we need to do is look for a new name! any ideas are all welcome! the best name will be given free cookies/cupcakes! HAHA. baru best kan ada prize ;)

History is important.

2011-02-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

You know how I once told you that HISTORY and I will never ever be best friends? well - has anyone told you that hate can turn into love? how you could hate something so much that somehow it can turn into love? It happened to me.

I have been kinda bored staying at home doing nothing. So I just started GOOGLE-ing up things to just fill my 'emptiness' so I came around a movie called DOWNFALL - downloaded it and watched it. It was OHSEM like seriously OHSEM. I mean knowing more things about history is OHSEM. This story tells you the last few days of Fuhrer's end.

History is exciting. I have just realized it now. I mean I know that they can be fascinating a long time ago but I only can feel it now. Because without learning from the past, how can we live a better future. I wanna know about the world, about MALAYSIA, about any countries, about things, I don't know, I just wanna know fascinating histories!

I want to learn more about history. Any recommendations that you can give me? Any interesting movies or documentary? I wanna watch and learn moreeeee! :)

I have too many junks.

2011-02-05T16:12:00.001+08:00

Again - this blog is about my room. HAHA. This is my 2011 room!

Semua almari dah put to one side. Rasa besar sikit bilik. And yes - TV kecik je sebab yang lagi satu tu nak bawak pergi CYBER nanty. Yes - I am moving for my final year. Sumpah dah malas drive. Minyak pulak dah naik. Macam haram. So decided to rent a house with PEEPEE, KIKI and HYJI :)

After cleaning up my room, I find that I have too many junks in room that I forgot they existed. Part of the junks are the TOYOL'S. Their toys and clothes are all over the place.

Then I saw a camera bag with my DINIE in it. My camera. I only use them whenever I have assignments to do. Carrying them around when we are hanging out doesn't amuse me that much anymore. They are heavy plus I prefer a smaller digital camera to carry around. No - I don't hate you DINIE! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH that I was thinking of selling you but I decided not too. You are going to be useful to me I know. I promise to use you more often! After I get my charger back from PEEPEE okay :)

Then I was going through my closet. And I have noticed that we are liars when it comes to 'I-don't-have-anything-to-wear'. There are so many stuff I have, my seventeen-years-old are still all good. I don't want to wear them because maybe I was afraid that when I put them on and I feel 'a little' tight - that's officially my clothes screaming YOU'RE FAT! truee? But I have tried some of them and they still fit - probably because I've loose a few Ks this few months. I wanna loose more! well atleast another 5 then I'll stop - I think. Hehe.

Another junks that I found are lots of old accessories and even stationeries! My oil pastel, my markers, lots of mounting spray and my sketches. HAHA. They are everywhere! No at least I can take all of my work to Cyber and let my room be A REAL ROOM for once.

Conclusion is they are not junks but I treated them like one. Try to be more thankful next time ECAR. ALHAMDULILLAH :)